Sketches
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Hello, Brothers and Sisters. I need to ask guidance from you.
To start off, on my first post in this forum, I talked about enemy entities possibly sexually assaulting me, but thought I was "schizophrenic." I have been staving them off and it's Day 22 of me meditating to negate the effects.
The problem is, I'm still exhausted and drained even after all this. I can do RTRs, but it would be late at night, 2 am or later. Why? Because the enemy has been draining me so much and keeping me restrained in my own bed that I fall asleep throughout the whole day.
There are times where I can't even move a muscle and they want to be the ones "controlling my body" so that I can even stand up to eat or drink water. I hate to say that I sometimes give in just so I could get some form of control.
I've been studying about how to stave them off. Most arrows point to Deep Cleaning, but so is Detaching and increasing energies (my aura is healthier than my soul and chakras because it's the only thing with AoP or energy, so to speak)
Despite this, the enemy uses the information against me.
I read stuff about "failed Satanists" and said stuff like:
"What if you're suffering schizophrenia like Ghost in the Machine?"
"You seem to be suffering the same fate like Shael here."
It almost got to the point where they try to bombard me with their thoughts (which is why I concluded it's psychic attachment, but also tons of negative energies after finally meditating for six months lack thereof) and sexually try to push pedophilia while they assault me.
And I concluded that "No one's stopping me to post in these forums."
Until they drained me again and I didn't get to post this two hours ago.
I'm beyond irritated because no one should try to threaten me to pull me away from Father Satan!!!! NOBODY!!!
So I ask, what to do in this situation? I'm not gonna be someone's "pet slave," and I'll do what it takes to keep them the fuck away from me. I'm so pissed that I don't have the energy to fight back sometimes. There are also times where I call Father Satan but it seems that there's no effect, making me think that there's an opening in my soul somewhere, either made by negative energies or that need energy to seal off completely.
Here is my meditation program. Since I wanted to focus on the important ones, these are what I concluded to do:
Aura Cleaning:
×36 AUM SURYAE
×4 Solar Breaths (Inhaling energies from the Sun)
Duration = 10 minutes
Aura of Protection:
×8 SATANAS
×44/63 AUM SURYAE
×8 Solar Breaths
×8 SATANAS
Duration = 15-23 minutes
Final RTR + Tetragrammaton:
Correct me if I'm wrong on this.
I target my house and my soul to banish negative energies. Am I doing it wrong by targeting my house?
Duration = 24 minutes
Returning Curses:
×8 Solar Breaths
Duration = 30 minutes(?)
I can only do them at late nighttime, which is why I feel that I can't add another round of meditations other than EZ Chakra Spin or Detaching, but that seems too much. I don't wanna continue for another hour, but at the same time, I feel that I'm not doing enough and I'm taking their bait to spread my energies too thin.
Conclusion:
* How to stop enemy attacks?
* Should I clean more, detach, or empower my chakras and soul?
* Is it fine to breathe in solar energies while the enemy is nearby? They point out that I'm cautious to breathe in energies at the back of my throat chakra and hint that "maybe they're behind me."
* Is it fine to use the Final RTR as a Banishing Ritual to my house as well?
I need some reassurances because right now, the enemy is playing mind games at my brainstorming. I need others' opinions on this. Last night and the whole day was rough.
I couldn't meditate other than caving in to do Detaching Working except to the crown and sixth chakra (it was starting to go Void of Course Moon), doing an Aura Cleaning and AoP, but that's it. They attacked me again, too.
I'm also thinking it's selfish of me to stop RTRs. It does bring good luck to me. But right now, I'm having doubts. Not that it isn't working, but more like, maybe focus on cleaning first...
To start off, on my first post in this forum, I talked about enemy entities possibly sexually assaulting me, but thought I was "schizophrenic." I have been staving them off and it's Day 22 of me meditating to negate the effects.
The problem is, I'm still exhausted and drained even after all this. I can do RTRs, but it would be late at night, 2 am or later. Why? Because the enemy has been draining me so much and keeping me restrained in my own bed that I fall asleep throughout the whole day.
There are times where I can't even move a muscle and they want to be the ones "controlling my body" so that I can even stand up to eat or drink water. I hate to say that I sometimes give in just so I could get some form of control.
I've been studying about how to stave them off. Most arrows point to Deep Cleaning, but so is Detaching and increasing energies (my aura is healthier than my soul and chakras because it's the only thing with AoP or energy, so to speak)
Despite this, the enemy uses the information against me.
I read stuff about "failed Satanists" and said stuff like:
"What if you're suffering schizophrenia like Ghost in the Machine?"
"You seem to be suffering the same fate like Shael here."
It almost got to the point where they try to bombard me with their thoughts (which is why I concluded it's psychic attachment, but also tons of negative energies after finally meditating for six months lack thereof) and sexually try to push pedophilia while they assault me.
And I concluded that "No one's stopping me to post in these forums."
Until they drained me again and I didn't get to post this two hours ago.
I'm beyond irritated because no one should try to threaten me to pull me away from Father Satan!!!! NOBODY!!!
So I ask, what to do in this situation? I'm not gonna be someone's "pet slave," and I'll do what it takes to keep them the fuck away from me. I'm so pissed that I don't have the energy to fight back sometimes. There are also times where I call Father Satan but it seems that there's no effect, making me think that there's an opening in my soul somewhere, either made by negative energies or that need energy to seal off completely.
Here is my meditation program. Since I wanted to focus on the important ones, these are what I concluded to do:
Aura Cleaning:
×36 AUM SURYAE
×4 Solar Breaths (Inhaling energies from the Sun)
Duration = 10 minutes
Aura of Protection:
×8 SATANAS
×44/63 AUM SURYAE
×8 Solar Breaths
×8 SATANAS
Duration = 15-23 minutes
Final RTR + Tetragrammaton:
Correct me if I'm wrong on this.
I target my house and my soul to banish negative energies. Am I doing it wrong by targeting my house?
Duration = 24 minutes
Returning Curses:
×8 Solar Breaths
Duration = 30 minutes(?)
I can only do them at late nighttime, which is why I feel that I can't add another round of meditations other than EZ Chakra Spin or Detaching, but that seems too much. I don't wanna continue for another hour, but at the same time, I feel that I'm not doing enough and I'm taking their bait to spread my energies too thin.
Conclusion:
* How to stop enemy attacks?
* Should I clean more, detach, or empower my chakras and soul?
* Is it fine to breathe in solar energies while the enemy is nearby? They point out that I'm cautious to breathe in energies at the back of my throat chakra and hint that "maybe they're behind me."
* Is it fine to use the Final RTR as a Banishing Ritual to my house as well?
I need some reassurances because right now, the enemy is playing mind games at my brainstorming. I need others' opinions on this. Last night and the whole day was rough.
I couldn't meditate other than caving in to do Detaching Working except to the crown and sixth chakra (it was starting to go Void of Course Moon), doing an Aura Cleaning and AoP, but that's it. They attacked me again, too.
I'm also thinking it's selfish of me to stop RTRs. It does bring good luck to me. But right now, I'm having doubts. Not that it isn't working, but more like, maybe focus on cleaning first...