RavenSky666 said:

I've been through a dark period in my life. I've been inactive. I feel like I have no business being here, posting after such a long time of inactivity. I've been no help at all. All I ever wanted to do was fight to stop the enemy and to help our cause. But it's been a long time now and I've been doing nothing. What good am I or have I ever been? I have abilities and I know they are of use to Father Satan. I'm no fool I won't discuss what they are exactly on here. But I know I have to be of some use with them. sorry that was the negativity talking, I'm trying to work through it. But I know I'm useful I just haven't learned how to be more useful with what I have, I was once on the right track to learn, but I fell away from you all after the death of a good friend and then the death of a parent literally months apart. It kind of spiraled me into darkness. I was convinced into going back to christianity by family, they wanted me to get back to it to help me in my life. I Know they meant well they don't know any better. but it was a bad idea, I was vulnerable so it was an easy take over. I feel bad for letting it happen. It can't be helped. We all make choices, good and bad and we must live with them. But we can change our future by learning from our mistakes and doing all that we can to not make them again. All I'm saying is I am who I am, I'm back, although slowly coming back. I may make mistakes but I'm working on being back and trying to just recover and get over my absence. I hope I can be accepted back. I feel like I betrayed you all by allowing myself to wander off when most needed. I'm no coward I was just mislead and full of sorrow at the time. It was easier to fall off the path than I ever thought..all it took was me to show weakness from my grief. I am deeply ashamed of myself. But I have to go forward now.

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RavenSky666 said:

I've been through a dark period in my life. I've been inactive. I feel like I have no business being here, posting after such a long time of inactivity. I've been no help at all. All I ever wanted to do was fight to stop the enemy and to help our cause. But it's been a long time now and I've been doing nothing. What good am I or have I ever been? I have abilities and I know they are of use to Father Satan. I'm no fool I won't discuss what they are exactly on here. But I know I have to be of some use with them. sorry that was the negativity talking, I'm trying to work through it. But I know I'm useful I just haven't learned how to be more useful with what I have, I was once on the right track to learn, but I fell away from you all after the death of a good friend and then the death of a parent literally months apart. It kind of spiraled me into darkness. I was convinced into going back to christianity by family, they wanted me to get back to it to help me in my life. I Know they meant well they don't know any better. but it was a bad idea, I was vulnerable so it was an easy take over. I feel bad for letting it happen. It can't be helped. We all make choices, good and bad and we must live with them. But we can change our future by learning from our mistakes and doing all that we can to not make them again. All I'm saying is I am who I am, I'm back, although slowly coming back. I may make mistakes but I'm working on being back and trying to just recover and get over my absence. I hope I can be accepted back. I feel like I betrayed you all by allowing myself to wander off when most needed. I'm no coward I was just mislead and full of sorrow at the time. It was easier to fall off the path than I ever thought..all it took was me to show weakness from my grief. I am deeply ashamed of myself. But I have to go forward now.

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