Aquarius said:
Do you masturbate to porn or fantasies?
Kinda both. I don't even have the time to masturbate that much, I do it dealy or I will feel bad but the feeling of wanting to have sex or at least masturbate is something that I have all day, no matter how much I masturbate. I honestly feel like this is an issue from past lives, I'm gay and I'm pretty sure I had some past lives, now imagine being gay during the middle age, or just before 2000. I probably had to hide my self and what I felt.
Shrouded said:
Sex is not neccesary for spiritual advancement but orgasm is. You are a very advanced member and I am sure I need not explain the power orgasms hold and how much it helps us and such. What I would recommend is finding an incubus for yourself as they can not only aid in your spiritual development but can assist you greatly in your clairaudient and clairvoyant centers being opened up by directing all of your sexual energy to opening said centers so you can see and hear them. Love is something we all need in one way or another and considering your situation I believe an Incubus would provid you with just what you desire/need
I already direct the orgasm energy to open my chakras, the problem is that I always feel excited and I don't know if this is normal. I honestly feel the root problem is that I want to connect to someone, its definitely something that I miss in my life, touching someone physically. This is why I don't know if an incubus is good for me.
Apprentice said:
I've had way above average libido all my life. I started exploring myself when I was 5 or 6 years old. In the beginning the first orgasms felt weird but totally enjoyable. After some time I started doing it deliberately because it was basically the only thing in my life that made me feel good. There is nothing abnormal about children discovering themselves. Like you, I almost did it with a cousin, too. Luckily nothing happened, just the talk. This would definitely have been very weird but we were children after all, FFS.
In high school I felt like a young rabbit, ready to hump. Unfortunately it was nearly impossible to find a partner with similar urge and a suitable place at this age because everybody lived with their parents.
I consider masturbation a pressure relief valve. At some point the charge of sexual energy gets so strong, you just can't stand the tension. It's like walking around with an overcharged high voltage capacitor in your lower body.
And just like you, I know damn well that the masturbation alone just isn't enough. A great analogy: if you are really starving, a hot dog quenches the first hunger but leaves you craving for more. This is what a quick masturbation mostly feels like. Real sex OTOH feels like a nice 3-course steak dinner. I bet you know damn well what I'm talking about. During high school, I came to enjoy edging. This is way better than a quick jackoff but still not comparable to a real sexual intercourse.
I'm not advanced psychically but I would hazard a guess that sex (or at least pressure relief) is needed in order to advance. I've asked my GD to take the orgasm energy and put it to good use. There are many more ways one could use sexual energy creatively. When I haven't had an orgasm for a while (3, sometimes 6 days), thoughts and cravings about it start messing even with my meditations. Serious rituals can become a steamy peep show and I have to actually force myself to silence thoughts about sex. The other thing that helps is a hectic work schedule and a lot of stress. You will forget you even needed sex, lol :lol:
Just kidding, of course. The energy is still there, growing daily. You just don't feel the need clearly if you know what I mean. When I start acting all moody and ballistic, I know I'm royally late for a relief.
Knowing what I know now, I would have worked myself psychically open back in my 20s and asked myself an succubus partner. Unfortunately there was no Internet or JoS back then.
This is my .02 cents. Take care, Bro.
Yeah we are pretty similar. It's not compleatily normal for a kid to have sexual thoughts, I think this are hangups from past lives. I'm gay and probably in my past lives I've had to hide my feelings and probably did not get to have sex at all. This may be the issue for me. I'm doing a working and I have already did some cleaning for my sacral chakra. It did help me and I'm better than before but It's not over yet. Still wondering if an Incubus is the right choice for me.
