I have. When I was in my very young teens me and my friends used to hack up frogs with axes, put them in jars with hair spray, burn them, freeze them. We were pretty creative like some inquisitor or something. We had a frog issue on the property but we were not merciful in our handling of it. On the contrary we were as evil as grey aliens towards them. Also one time I killed a possum slowly with a pellet gun and shovel. Initially I thought it was dead but once I got to work on it I felt I needed to finish the job so I didn't just leave it to suffer. I didn't understand that possums fake death at the time. I felt bad for a long time afterwards for those deeds but I've forgiven myself because I realize now that it was all because of enemy programming i.e. Xtianity which creates heartless monsters. Using the "I free from punishing myself, I forgive myself" affirmation has helped me move on from those past ill deeds and you can too! When we come to Satan we enter a new life a life of knowledge, wisdom, understanding, and self forgiveness. It's time to forgive yourself if you have not. No sense in beating yourself up over it because we all make mistakes. It's hard for me to tell people about all of these things but if it helps anyone then I am happy. Now I'm super kind to animals I even take bugs outside instead of killing them.