I was going to ask this before but I'm stubborn and thought I could do it on my own without asking. So now I see I have an issue that I need to write about. I've tried and I've asked for guidance from Father and my Guardian as well, which they have very well given me, and I am very grateful. The issue lies within my own self. Every time I start to feel I'm seeing my past I get overwhelmed and overcome by anxiety, dread, and I feel like crying and it snaps me from my trance. I've asked for help and I've been comforted through this, but I can't progress enough to see why this is happening to me. My Guardian and Father blessed me with comforting energy last night after I tried again and was met with the same Painful feeling. Also the enemy tries to interfere every once in awhile by means of distractions in my mind, so I have to stop what I'm doing and try void meditation which works usually, then I visualize a door, it's usually brown or white probably because of my childhood door being white. Once I open it and state that I am now going through it to see my previous life, I enter, then I see darkness and I feel anxious and I feel pained and I feel fearful that if I don't snap out of my trance I'll have something terrible happen. I try to hold on but the feeling of dread gets me every time..I really want to go on. I can see it's a blockage of some sort. Maybe something terrible happened in my past and I can't see it.

RavenSky666 said:

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This happened to me too once, but I was already in the scene. I've shared this regression experience before but for the sake of context and learning I'll share it again.

I was a pagan Templar Knight in my past life some time in the 1200s/1300s, scene was me at a post by some road what I presume to be in wait of people to escort (I later researched and found out that the whole reason the Knight's Templar came to be was to escort, guard and protect people on their pilgrimage to the "holy land". Probably what I was doing). A man on horseback arrived followed by 4 or 5 other men walking aside with him. They approached me.

The first time I was in this scene, I lost focus as the man on the horse was approaching and was pulled out of the regression. The second I tried again I ended up in the same scene, so it seemed to be of some significance... this was where I experienced the 'stuck' feeling, as if someone hit a pause button. The men approached me and I was looking through my eyes in the scene as the horseman halted in front of me looking down at me. This was where the scene got stuck.

Frustratingly for several minutes the men wouldn't do anything further, they looked like idle npcs in a game that got stuck in a cutscene, just staring and standing vacantly. I tried to get the scene to continue forward but it was like something was stopping it. I finally relaxed and willed time to motion onward, pretending I was pressing a 'play' button to allow the scene to proceed whilst being fully open and willing to see whatever happened next no matter how bad it was, and it did.

As soon as I did that the man started speaking to me, I saw his lips moving and him staring sternly at me, but I didn't hear what he was saying, it was hard to interpret on the astral and it sounded very distant and muffled. But because this was a recorded memory on the akasha I still felt what my reaction was as I was viewing the past-life memory as if I was there again.

I suddenly was consumed with fear, terror and dread, anxiety as if my life was just threatened, and there was a severe sudden stinging and pressure in my clairaudience chakras as if whatever I heard him say was so traumatic and shocking that it created some kind of energy blockage or spiritual trauma to my astral hearing. I still kind of feel it thinking back on that memory, and I still have no idea what he said, but if I had to guess, I was being arrested or sentenced to torture/imprisonment/execution, something.

In the very early 1300s King Phillip II of France had tortured hundreds of Templars and forced them into confessions of heresy. Not long after, every Templar was being hunted down and arrested with a majority being subjected to torture and imprisonment. I don't know for certain, but I was probably one such Templar that ended up being tracked down and then arrested and likely put through torture. I think I was one of the many who tried to escape and managed to successfully.

Many Templar Knights escaped to the British isles where there was safety from prosecution, as King Edward II of England didn't believe the accusations upon the order and held confident to the positivity of the Templar Knights, but the pope pressured him into making arrests, but he only did them half-heartedly and in my research he never tortured them, in fact their imprisonments were actually quite comfortable... this is probably where my connection with Wales comes from as I may have sought refuge there and lived the rest of my days. Or maybe I was prosecuted against later on, who knows.

Either way as you can probably see from my own experience here, it seems you're trying to enter a time in a past-life that was heavily traumatic to you and you're subconsciously protecting your ownself from seeing it or experiencing it again, not to mention the apprehension is also manifesting in you not being able to see it because you feel deep down you don't want to or shouldn't.

If you really want to see this scene of yours, then you'll have to work through and push through that... though personally I wouldn't want to see myself being tortured, nor unintentionally feel it again. You can try to will yourself to a different scenario than the one the akasha is automatically leading you to. When we try to do past-life regression, we subconsciously seek to see the 'big' parts of it, so this can try to take us to one of the more significant moments in that past life, but it's likely these 'big' parts and 'significant' moments are ones that affected us the strongest or were the most sudden, which in turn could mean something heavily negative and traumatic.

Try willing yourself to a trivial and positive moment in your past life, you may find it to be easier.

In my experience past lives usually come to you in bits and pieces. The most memorable parts being most clear as they had the greatest impact on the subconscious.

These include terrible and unfortunate things as well as the most joyous and beautiful things.

I’ve had a similar block to what you describe when looking far back. I had seen bits and pieces in my mind during trance from ancient times, and from more recent times, but a part in between was black and dark, and felt really painful.

When I finally broke through and faced the events which caused that blockage, I relived for many nights those events which my subconscious had locked away.

You have to get through them if you want to see beyond, and want to liberate your soul from any scars related to traumatic or otherwise terrible experiences from your past.

For me what worked was to keep trying and resolve myself that no matter what it was, I had to see it. I had to open my eyes and become aware, become conscious of whatever caused this blockage.

I tranced with resolve to see it no matter what, and with the resolve to face the experiences which caused this, using my will power to overcome the dread, fear and apprehension my subconscious has towards those things that had happened.

Doing that for a few days I began first to feel more and more emotions before finally those memories became clear and then like a flood it burst into my mind. The experience was truly horrifying, but I faced it and experienced mentally again what had happened in the past.

Until I looked at everything and overcame my emotions and dread completely, did it stop involuntarily running through my mind. After that I was able to slowly delve into other memories that were blocked or hidden behind these traumatic experiences.

I haven’t been able to fully observe an entire lifetime from beginning to end as of yet, but a lot of things have came back to me, and even more blockages have been cleared.

After clearing a block, it is very liberating. It sets you free from negative karmic ties and also curses or spiritual dross related or caused by these sorts of experiences, but to clear them, in my experience you have to first overcome the emotions and trauma associated with these, and then go through the events mentally once again, to become conscious of it.

Only after you become conscious once more of these things can you truly heal yourself from any deep subconscious trauma these things have caused.

Often traumatic experiences like that will block off the entire lifetime from your subconscious, as the most memorable events from these lifetimes are the traumatic experiences which the subconscious tries to lock away and close it’s eyes to as you subconsciously want to forget about them.

So to get the full picture of your past lives, you have to see all the regrets, trauma’s and unpleasantries which left deep wounds or scars on your soul.

When you are mentally ready and prepared, use your will to overcome the emotions trying to protect you from the events of your past and take charge of your subconscious, order yourself to see it even if it is terrible, and know that it is all in the past and has already happened, it doesn’t harm you any longer in your present life.

I want to truly thank you both for the support and advice. I will take into consideration what you have said and I will keep trying until I break through and overcome. Even if it is awful, I feel the strong need to see what my past was. I feel it will help me more in understanding myself.