Ghost in the Machine said:
Satanic Path said:
When I sleep, I dream a lot.
And many times my dreams are scary and pointless.
Sometimes I feel two hands behind my back pushing me towards dark and scary places, or I dream about my "friend", Who Is a Geova Witness, and she tries to change my mind about Satan and scare me with her thoughts on my Path.
I'm in a toxic relationship, I know.
Once I would have a sleep paralysis every night, but fortunately It didn't happen anymore.
But I'm tired of dreaming this girl, and in the real life I Wish I could just stop talking to her, because if she knew I'm gay and Satanist,she would just delete me from her empty life.
She Is constantly sending me articles from JW community, and I'm tired of hiding myself and telling her lies everyday.
She Is a nice person, but her mind Is totally empty.
I love her and this makes me so angry.
I hate myself for loving a girl who thinks I'm sick just because I love boys, and who would hate me if she found out the truth about me being a SS.
You need to take 9 steps back and look at the picture before you. Why would you be so down about this toxic shitsoul removing you from her life? Why is someone like that so important to you? She's trying to
tear you away from SATAN.
If somebody was trying to take me away from my beloved father who helped me through the worst of struggles, showed me love when I thought myself unworthy of it and still had faith in me despite past troubles and mistakes then I'd be dropping that bitch faster than a speeding bullet, I wouldn't care if we had a million positive interactions and 'fond' memories, the second that attempt is made they're fuckin' out for life.
You clearly see how disgusting this 'relationship' is with this empty-headed borg and what it's doing to you, what you seem to lack is the discipline to take the actions you very clearly need to take. Get a grip on yourself, you're concerning over a parasitic corpse weed when there's fields of sunflowers to be found elsewhere. When we bond with people we actually form an astral link, a connection between our souls, so your emotional attachment is drawing in the filth she exudes from her own soul and this is manifesting in your dreams and in your life.
If you want this torture to end, then you need to man up, pull your shit together and destroy this relationship and get rid of it entirely. It's harming you in more ways than you're aware.
So in the end you ask yourself, who's it gonna be? This enemy filth with a smiley facade of friendship that is attacking your very soul and cursing you with nightmares... or your very creator Satan, who in every aspect of your life cares for you as his own and watches out for you to guide you and help you as a loving father would?
Your name is literally "Satanic Path".
Live up to it!
Hi Ghost, I totally identify with your advice.
Unfortunately this xian knows my family and my friends...she could ruin my life if she spoke to the people who live in the small city I come from.
The situation Is really bad.
The family of this girl has a very miserable restaurant, in whick I worked for some months to gain some experience.
I was a waiter.
And being in that toxic environment Just helped me becoming a self harmer and being suicidal.
This girl's Brother, Who Is a great friend with my Brother, has a muslim wife.
Just to make you understand how messed up they are.
It was usual for me to meet and talk to the JWs who visited this girl, and every time I would feel their judgment on my feminine tendencies.
I had to deepen my voice, walk as I've never walked, tell lies about invisible girls I was in a relationship with.
That was Crazy and made me Just feel alone.
Customers were rude to me and they didn't worry that I could her them when talking of me as a faggot or things like that.
My friend's grandmother, Who Is really old, Always laughed at me for my way of speech, or for the way I moved.
I hope that bitch dies all alone, btw.
This girl would catch my same bus for school, so I could never avoid her.
She got me to know her JWs friends and tried to push me towards her disgusting god.
After trying to take my life, one of her friend gave me an article from JW. Org that talked about suicide.
That day was crazy.
I Just wanted to Scream at her : Your god is the reason for which I have my arms covered in cuts.
So yeah, you're totally right, every word you said Is right.
I need to sweep this girl away from my life, and I Will find a way out from this toxic relationship.
I hate JWs, their fake love that only wants to erase Who you are and kill your soul.
Sorry if I wrote so much, but this Is my first time understanding how bad these people were to me.
I'll try to stop this bitch, and I swear that I'll stop using the word "friend" when talking of this empty girl.
