Hi, first post here

Was born & raised Xian, left the church in my late teens. Have been extremely drawn to Hinduism since then. Now I'm in my mid-20s and have been reading the JoS website for months. What I found most interesting was all the connections drawn between Satanism and ancient Hinduism (<-- not sure if that's the most accurate thing to call it). Like the connection between Satan and Shiva (a god I have a strong affinity with; I even had a vision of him once where he taught me something that changed my life).

I have been curious to start doing power meditations. But even though so much time has passed since my involvement with Xianity, the fear SURGES forward whenever I start to meditate. I happen upon Xian fear-mongering on every imaginable platform -- Instagram, YouTube, etc. It triggers my fear all over again. I don't know how to "get off the fence" and ask for help from any demons. I get trapped in this thought cycle of "What if I get scared and want to back out later? Will the demons be mad at me? Will they punish me?" Not to mention my fear of the Xian god & of "burning in hell."

I welcome advice from former Xians on how to annihilate fear of yhvh once and for all.

One more thing: when I tried to click the JoS link with a title along the lines of "How to undo Xian indoctrination," it says the page no longer exists. Does anyone have it saved?

The most important step is getting rid of this energy in your soul. This will allow you to think way more clearly on these matters. To do this make sure to do the final rtr each day then cleanse this nasty energy from you using the returning the curses thing. Next up is cleansing each one of your chakras and your aura. This may take a bit but after this energy is out of you the xtian thoughts and fears will diminish a lot and down to none.

Read the Jos site and exposing Christianity site this will help.

Once you know the truth you may still have fears and thoughts of this nature but you will be immune to the lies.

This is an important step in deprograming. Another step you may take that is useful is go to a site like this https://new.exchristian.net/?m=1

And read some of the testimonies of people that left xtianity. Many of them are atheists and skeptics and don’t believe in anything spiritual but this will be helpful in realizing the negatives of the path of xtianity and that a lot of people have left it behind (be aware some people there might promote some other enemy stuff like Marxism or new age ideas etc but it is still helpful especially since you know what the truth is) There are also plenty of articles on the negatives of xtianity.

This is a site I used personally to help deprogram myself back when I was a teen and wanted out of it and to get over my fears. It may or may not be helpful to you.

After awhile you will no longer have any of these fears.

I grew up in an xtian home my parents are still very much into xtianity I was taken to church and indoctrinated as a kid and I never liked it that much cause I was at least a little spiritually open so I knew something was wrong with it but didn’t know what until I came across the JOS site.

I hope this helps you. You don’t have to be a slave I am sure you are realizing this and good for you in doing so.

There is so much stuff out there that is against xtianity you may have to kind of reprogram your mind yourself. Also Munka and/or ansuz working 111 times with an affirmation like “I am completely and eternally free of Christianity in every way” or “I am completely and eternally free of all connections and influences of the enemies of Satan right now” (I got that affirmation from something Hooded Cobra posted along time ago) or create an affirmation you like yourself if you don’t like these but it gives you an idea.

Good luck all this can be helpful.

I'd suggest you start by going here, then continue here. Then to cover more areas, go here. You could also search my posts for terms, such as

"god"
jewsus
xian
xians
xianity
wodka spirit

for more of what I have replied regarding it.

After that, you should go through the sites -

https://www.joyofsatan.org
- http://joyofsatan.com
https://satanisgod.org
https://satanslibrary.org
http://exposingchristianity.com
http://666blacksun.com
https://kabbalahexposed.com
http://gbltthulesociety666.angelfire.com/about
https://exposingthelieofislam.wordpress.com
https://www.evilgoy.com
https://groups-archive.com [down currently; I thought this would be back up now; you can visit this link (which is a bit out-of-date now, but topics are still covered on this forum) to download it, if it is safe for you to do so - https://mega.nz/#F!vzQ0QATD!G91quBFThyEjXpOmw4BwRw]
This groups-archive site is an archive of threads and posts from Yahoo! Groups. As you might know, Yahoo! has killed the Groups now.

You can also download the Joy of Satan Encyclopaedia, which as recent as November 2019, as well -

https://ancient-forums.com/viewtopic.php?f=24&t=25002

You can also check HPHC's signature for the current online status of the sites. The current link to check them is

https://uptime.theyknow.in/uptime.html

but that might change, so keep an eye on HPHC's signature.

It might be overwhelming, and there is much to go through, but the topics herein are all related to each other in one way or another, so take your time. You can make more posts when you need to, of course.

Once you decide that you are ready, you should dedicate yourself. This is not "selling your Soul to the devil"; Satan is not the devil, and you cannot sell your Soul; your Soul is yours. We dedicate our Souls to Satan's cause, to help and improve ourselves and Humans, getting rid of jew shit. The Soul has power, so we dedicate ourselves to help fight. Satan and the Gods and Goddesses are anywhere from brand new Gods and Goddesses up to tens or hundreds of thousands of years old or older, so they are rather wise about problems which people have faced. There is no need to fear punishment, if you are sincere and actually want to make things better.

You cannot burn in Hell, because Hell is not a place of eternal torment and torture. There are different meanings, both literal and symbolic, for Hell. One is a place where Souls reside when they don't have a Physical Body and it is lit dimly because the Soul is made up of light and light can damage the Soul; the Physical Body envelopes the Soul, so it is protected, and we can use positive colour/light, with intention and visualisation, to improve things in various ways. Another meaning of Hell is the 1st or Base Chakra - we are "damned" into not being able to achieve big things, one of these things being Godhood. After you have decided to dedicate, then you should make a meditation programme for yourself. You can use one of the programmes provided here, or create your own. We're also here for discussion, debate, and to answer questions as and when you want and need to.