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Please excuse this as it is a little long.
The problem is more then traumatic and leading me more frustrated and angry then ever. And that is the supposed indirection of help that im supposedly getting from coming to this group. Its mentions numerous times how someone was looking for an answer and the groups or whoever post gave them the advice that they needed. But the problem is when this is done(supposedly) every time i get on the forum from the past and up till now this bullshit is literally telling and instructing me to commit to some insane shit. For instance, not eating. Because somehow i can use spiritual energy to feed my body cause everything is made out of energy so i can do that because im supposedly super powerful and the hunger, nausea, and dizziness, is all enemy attack. This crap possession bullshit is even confining me to bed forcing me to to skip out the things i need and want to do for myself because everything is supposedly and enemy attack.
It sucks not having a job as well. and to read a post of Maxine saying money is off the enemy and is the jewish god and be instructed not to look and get a job is beyond restarted and i seriously dont agree. Its like im being force to become homeless again then to have the blame all on me when im trying to do whats write for myself. Then with no money taking care of essentials is beyond bull without some type of welfare. I dont want to be bum lazy good for nothing individual, i want a job, i want something to do. i want to eat three meals a day and not starve myself under the premise of spiritual liberty and raising the serpent.
Also the whole enemy talking thing from text and other dialogue is crap as well. Sure it was surprising at first when Maxine mentioned this, but when crap like this is sprayed all over the place, and then instructed on te opposite side supposedly not to read books, not to commit myself to art, or anything for that matter because its supposedly of the enemy. The same goes for music. How rap is of the enemy and goes along with jewish energy, so if i listen to rap or a song i enjoy im supposedly now tying in to judea. Same thing with X-mas music. Supposedly everything is of the enemy and i need to become i confined borg who cant eat or do anything unless its an award or holiday.
Also the im a transsexual bullshit is starting to get on my nerves as well. Supposedly im suppose to win or get a lump some of money, and with this i need to chop off my dick and become some trans. Now im supposedly having sex with many succubus and everything is ok. I just have to continue starving myself and not commit to meditation or RTR at all, I haven't been doing RTR or fighting because of this bullshit and when i did, surprisingly, i actually had food on the table so to speak. But then, how can i do a working or empower myself, if i literally cant move from my bed, or anywhere for that matter. This is the same amount of bull as the SS who became paranoid over wearing the color black. How wearing all black is of the enemy. NONSENSE.
I ask the Gods of Hell, Satan, for help, and then i see chains. Its supposedly chains and bindings of the enemy, so i visualize feel and break these chains im free, im good, but i still cant move.now my body is shaking all over the place and its normal. Not wanting to waste my entire day half awake and sleep,body hurting from laying all day playing make believe with imaginary succubi then blamed for it it. Blame for the time lost. Also porn as well. No interracial porn, but now im being forced to watch and masturbate to it, even though i finally quit porn all together. Now im being force to literally go against myself. What the joyofsatan website says is totally different then what im experiencing. But then im still being forced to not take care of myself and handle the things i need to do. Like a simple working or RTR
How can i stop this. I dont care for succubi under the guise of liberation if the only thing im doing is starving myself and not committing to bringing about a happy future for myself. I think its all bulshit, to the point i considered even attacking the members here because of the bull shit. Like when i type something and told to keep my mouth shut. Or typed something and have a smart comment against me from whoever. Why the fuck do clergy and moderators post this bullshit anyway. I mean im so sorry for being triggered because some bastard dont have anything positive to say, then what now, im supposed to feel victimized by sending their negativity back at them, Bullshit. How can i stop this if im having trouble and being kept from doing a working.
The problem is more then traumatic and leading me more frustrated and angry then ever. And that is the supposed indirection of help that im supposedly getting from coming to this group. Its mentions numerous times how someone was looking for an answer and the groups or whoever post gave them the advice that they needed. But the problem is when this is done(supposedly) every time i get on the forum from the past and up till now this bullshit is literally telling and instructing me to commit to some insane shit. For instance, not eating. Because somehow i can use spiritual energy to feed my body cause everything is made out of energy so i can do that because im supposedly super powerful and the hunger, nausea, and dizziness, is all enemy attack. This crap possession bullshit is even confining me to bed forcing me to to skip out the things i need and want to do for myself because everything is supposedly and enemy attack.
It sucks not having a job as well. and to read a post of Maxine saying money is off the enemy and is the jewish god and be instructed not to look and get a job is beyond restarted and i seriously dont agree. Its like im being force to become homeless again then to have the blame all on me when im trying to do whats write for myself. Then with no money taking care of essentials is beyond bull without some type of welfare. I dont want to be bum lazy good for nothing individual, i want a job, i want something to do. i want to eat three meals a day and not starve myself under the premise of spiritual liberty and raising the serpent.
Also the whole enemy talking thing from text and other dialogue is crap as well. Sure it was surprising at first when Maxine mentioned this, but when crap like this is sprayed all over the place, and then instructed on te opposite side supposedly not to read books, not to commit myself to art, or anything for that matter because its supposedly of the enemy. The same goes for music. How rap is of the enemy and goes along with jewish energy, so if i listen to rap or a song i enjoy im supposedly now tying in to judea. Same thing with X-mas music. Supposedly everything is of the enemy and i need to become i confined borg who cant eat or do anything unless its an award or holiday.
Also the im a transsexual bullshit is starting to get on my nerves as well. Supposedly im suppose to win or get a lump some of money, and with this i need to chop off my dick and become some trans. Now im supposedly having sex with many succubus and everything is ok. I just have to continue starving myself and not commit to meditation or RTR at all, I haven't been doing RTR or fighting because of this bullshit and when i did, surprisingly, i actually had food on the table so to speak. But then, how can i do a working or empower myself, if i literally cant move from my bed, or anywhere for that matter. This is the same amount of bull as the SS who became paranoid over wearing the color black. How wearing all black is of the enemy. NONSENSE.
I ask the Gods of Hell, Satan, for help, and then i see chains. Its supposedly chains and bindings of the enemy, so i visualize feel and break these chains im free, im good, but i still cant move.now my body is shaking all over the place and its normal. Not wanting to waste my entire day half awake and sleep,body hurting from laying all day playing make believe with imaginary succubi then blamed for it it. Blame for the time lost. Also porn as well. No interracial porn, but now im being forced to watch and masturbate to it, even though i finally quit porn all together. Now im being force to literally go against myself. What the joyofsatan website says is totally different then what im experiencing. But then im still being forced to not take care of myself and handle the things i need to do. Like a simple working or RTR
How can i stop this. I dont care for succubi under the guise of liberation if the only thing im doing is starving myself and not committing to bringing about a happy future for myself. I think its all bulshit, to the point i considered even attacking the members here because of the bull shit. Like when i type something and told to keep my mouth shut. Or typed something and have a smart comment against me from whoever. Why the fuck do clergy and moderators post this bullshit anyway. I mean im so sorry for being triggered because some bastard dont have anything positive to say, then what now, im supposed to feel victimized by sending their negativity back at them, Bullshit. How can i stop this if im having trouble and being kept from doing a working.