HP. Hoodedcobra666 said:
There were around 300 spam posts today, so maybe your own was rejected due to spamming. Numbers are that big.
I didn't see any post rejected of yours in particular. If the mistake is on our end, sorry for the inconvenience.
Hello, I sent this post as new topic, it was rejected. So, I sent this to existing topic and it was accepted. Unforunately, no one answer the question. So, i was wondering if you can answer some of it?
"Hello, I have been dedicated for several months, life has seemed to be noticeably improved since then compared to the last couple of years. I have heard of this group years ago, but sort of flee out of fear of myself going bad when I attempt to see my future through mixed of karma and lucid dreaming, it wasn't just bad, somehow it still affect me into waking world when I couldn't move and see a burning golden sentence in my view that say "Judgement will come." That was when I realized that maybe I am not ready to accept satanism since I was always pathetic and weak and rely on everyone else for help because of my deafness. What chance do I have against an enemy that is easily stronger than I am when most of those self empowerments that I see on Joy of Satan require chant or vibrating that I can't even do because I can't hear them correctly or pronouncing them.
That was age ago, I came across a problem within the first month of dedicate. I was looking through names of gods within Joy of Satan for a mentor/teacher/guide to improve my lucid dream/astral projection so I can use those techniques to practicing self-empowerment at nights without risking exposed myself. I came across one by the name of Lucifuge Refocale that High Priestess Maxine herself has started to observe that he assist those who are newly dedicated, which match my situation. So, after learn and remember his symbol. Next time, I have a lucid dream, I draw his symbol into the air, and spoke his name. Then reality within my dream seems to shifted as puzzles similar to Tetris appear all over the place, horizontal, vertical, diagonal, it like the world was shattered into puzzles. I saw a lone man in the middle of the clearing. But he feels wrong than I was expecting of a demon, he seems to feel cruel and cold than what I heard of a kind and soft and warm of a demon. So I became wary and notice that reality didn't seem to disappear like I was expecting since my lucid dream rarely lasts more than 5 minutes which is why I was looking for a teacher to improve my lucid dream skill. This being is mocking me for seeking help from satan when it is obvious that I would not get any since satan doesn't help diseases and instead destroy them. I can see that my deafness posed a problem but I didn't think that it may the same sort of disease that satanism is trying to remove, so that might mean that I am unwanted and it better for me to die so I can be reincarnated into a more functional body. I got angry as you expect and try to attack this being since I now doubt that this being is even demon consider this one has hair and Lucifuge Refocal was observed to been bald. I got fling away once again. I abort from the dream because now I realized that I am outmatched within my mind.
Summary/Questions:
I am trying to summon Lucifuge Refocal in the Lucid Dream but I don't seem to be able to summon him for help with a lucid dream. How do I do that?
Is my deafness is the sort of diseases that satanism look down, am I unworthy to be Satan's follower because I cant do most of those chants needed to empowered my soul into godhood?"