darkmonkey666
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I can't really tell I remember last year when I posted something on doing a love spell (this is under my old darkmonkey666 account i believe) another member had informed me that my Demon lover had appeared to them saying something (I forgot what that post was about and can't seem to find it right now sigh) and that she had blonde hair took some time to describe her. Anyways so recently I am getting a little better at being spiritually open than I was.
Last night as i was going to sleep i kept getting flashes of a blonde haired girl in various nature scenes she was thin like described. The problem with the Demon lover hypothesis is this I clearly remember being with someone physical doing physical things with them etc in my body oddly enough in the memory some of this stuff was in the woods or a nature area.
So I am a little confused I felt a person sending a strong love energy to me and they are kind of doing it when i am typing this too.
I want to know if this person is physically on planet earth or not I would assume they are from the memories. How in the world would i ever go about finding them. It's even in my personality and mannerisms etc and part of why I have been so frustrated with all other relationships is because they are not like this person fully. So it would be of benifit for me to find them again and I am not sure I want to let go of this individual.
I am only writing about this now because I am becoming aware more so. I do not believe this person is a Demon spiritually advanced yes and probably more so than i am right now by far but not a Goddess. I am really confused on this and that is why I am writing this. I don't quite understand.
Anyways anyone's input would be cool. I can see how this has also prevented me from really being that close to anyone else because I already got to experience what is perfect for me and no one else added up to this most of it was on the subconscious till more recently that i am pulling back some past life memories and I have not had many relationships because of this.
So Venus is once again going back into pisces soon around the time i was made aware of this. I will probably try to do the working visualizing her this time the last time the whole thing backfired on me although it did make me a friend who looked exactly like what I visualized strangely enough in the working and fit some of the characteristics not all but it didn't per say get me a relationship like i tried to visualize.
Anyways so your take on this. How do I find this indivual
I had a dream with her several times recently. She called herself my wife and we were in the dream in the middle East somewhere i believe and near Muslims we were speaking in some code words that we both knew were making fun of Muslims.
I really don't know what the significance of all that was since i never met a Muslim in my life and there are not many here but I liked the feeling of being around her in the dream.
Anyways so if anyone knows anything from what i described cool I just want to post this cause i am confused what do I do with all this i know there is some person I really miss probably her that i always took charactistics from and projected onto someone else to try to make her like that person this caused arguements. The odd part was it is like no one I know not even myself but it's a list of traits i do this to all my partners any advice.
Last night as i was going to sleep i kept getting flashes of a blonde haired girl in various nature scenes she was thin like described. The problem with the Demon lover hypothesis is this I clearly remember being with someone physical doing physical things with them etc in my body oddly enough in the memory some of this stuff was in the woods or a nature area.
So I am a little confused I felt a person sending a strong love energy to me and they are kind of doing it when i am typing this too.
I want to know if this person is physically on planet earth or not I would assume they are from the memories. How in the world would i ever go about finding them. It's even in my personality and mannerisms etc and part of why I have been so frustrated with all other relationships is because they are not like this person fully. So it would be of benifit for me to find them again and I am not sure I want to let go of this individual.
I am only writing about this now because I am becoming aware more so. I do not believe this person is a Demon spiritually advanced yes and probably more so than i am right now by far but not a Goddess. I am really confused on this and that is why I am writing this. I don't quite understand.
Anyways anyone's input would be cool. I can see how this has also prevented me from really being that close to anyone else because I already got to experience what is perfect for me and no one else added up to this most of it was on the subconscious till more recently that i am pulling back some past life memories and I have not had many relationships because of this.
So Venus is once again going back into pisces soon around the time i was made aware of this. I will probably try to do the working visualizing her this time the last time the whole thing backfired on me although it did make me a friend who looked exactly like what I visualized strangely enough in the working and fit some of the characteristics not all but it didn't per say get me a relationship like i tried to visualize.
Anyways so your take on this. How do I find this indivual
I had a dream with her several times recently. She called herself my wife and we were in the dream in the middle East somewhere i believe and near Muslims we were speaking in some code words that we both knew were making fun of Muslims.
I really don't know what the significance of all that was since i never met a Muslim in my life and there are not many here but I liked the feeling of being around her in the dream.
Anyways so if anyone knows anything from what i described cool I just want to post this cause i am confused what do I do with all this i know there is some person I really miss probably her that i always took charactistics from and projected onto someone else to try to make her like that person this caused arguements. The odd part was it is like no one I know not even myself but it's a list of traits i do this to all my partners any advice.