unnamed satanist
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Hi everyone, I'm at an extremely uncertain time in my life at the moment and would really appreciate any advice as it is directly related to spiritual warfare. I would greatly appreciate if you read this post in full.
SO, a couple of months ago I began dating this xian girl (I know, a mistake typically but she was clearly different) and upon getting to know her it all fell into place perfectly. We are in deep deep love and it turns out she doesn't believe in any of that xian bullshit at all and often agrees with me when I rant about the evils of Xianity and the church. She also practices kundalini yoga and other spiritual practices despite living in a strict xian household and not even believing in the existence of the kundalini serpent. She is full of life and clearly has a very powerful aura without even being aware of her potential.
Anyway, it turns out that her dad (who died when she was just three years old) was a MASSIVE 'pagan'. He did tai-chi and all sorts of spiritual practices and was very into tarot cards and divination and even predicted his own early death before he was diagnosed with cancer. It blew my mind when I was told that. The more I learn about him the more fascinated I am and the clearer it is he was very powerful, much more than I am as a satanist of two years. He used to write poems and they often reference certain Egyptian gods such as Anubis and so my point is he may have been a Satanic soul when he was alive.
So because of all this, one day I just said fuck it and I educated her on my beliefs. It started with the basics like energy and the importance of yoga etc. but she was just SO open-minded about all of it and I loved her so much at that point I told her almost everything. About the Gods, about the extraterrestrials in biblical paintings, the kundalini serpent, the origins of words such as Satan or devil (Devi in Sanskrit.) Just about the only thing I didn't educate her on was the jewish question and the fact that I am a Satanist specifically (I just referred to myself as a pagan.)
Naturally of course once I got home and my hormones died down I began worrying about whether I made the right decision or whether I should keep going and tell her EVERYTHING because I really genuinely care about this girl and want to show her the truth but I'm worried about it as it essentially gives her the power to ruin my life if a breakup was to happen. I prayed to Satan for guidance and I felt this beautiful energy consume my aura and also I got a message from her that was related to paganism and could be seen as a sign. I'm so fucking confused and I don't know if I'm really receiving signs from Satan or if I'm making it up in my head because I want to teach her the truth. Any advice would be so appreciated thanks guys. She's politically quite left-wing but dislikes both communism and capitalism. She also has jewish friends and I just don't know what the right thing to do is.
SO, a couple of months ago I began dating this xian girl (I know, a mistake typically but she was clearly different) and upon getting to know her it all fell into place perfectly. We are in deep deep love and it turns out she doesn't believe in any of that xian bullshit at all and often agrees with me when I rant about the evils of Xianity and the church. She also practices kundalini yoga and other spiritual practices despite living in a strict xian household and not even believing in the existence of the kundalini serpent. She is full of life and clearly has a very powerful aura without even being aware of her potential.
Anyway, it turns out that her dad (who died when she was just three years old) was a MASSIVE 'pagan'. He did tai-chi and all sorts of spiritual practices and was very into tarot cards and divination and even predicted his own early death before he was diagnosed with cancer. It blew my mind when I was told that. The more I learn about him the more fascinated I am and the clearer it is he was very powerful, much more than I am as a satanist of two years. He used to write poems and they often reference certain Egyptian gods such as Anubis and so my point is he may have been a Satanic soul when he was alive.
So because of all this, one day I just said fuck it and I educated her on my beliefs. It started with the basics like energy and the importance of yoga etc. but she was just SO open-minded about all of it and I loved her so much at that point I told her almost everything. About the Gods, about the extraterrestrials in biblical paintings, the kundalini serpent, the origins of words such as Satan or devil (Devi in Sanskrit.) Just about the only thing I didn't educate her on was the jewish question and the fact that I am a Satanist specifically (I just referred to myself as a pagan.)
Naturally of course once I got home and my hormones died down I began worrying about whether I made the right decision or whether I should keep going and tell her EVERYTHING because I really genuinely care about this girl and want to show her the truth but I'm worried about it as it essentially gives her the power to ruin my life if a breakup was to happen. I prayed to Satan for guidance and I felt this beautiful energy consume my aura and also I got a message from her that was related to paganism and could be seen as a sign. I'm so fucking confused and I don't know if I'm really receiving signs from Satan or if I'm making it up in my head because I want to teach her the truth. Any advice would be so appreciated thanks guys. She's politically quite left-wing but dislikes both communism and capitalism. She also has jewish friends and I just don't know what the right thing to do is.