Catalincata94 said:
But if somebody has no reason to do something then why would he do it? Like i have my own expectation but that is also my reason
I have another reason that is just survival but at that I have no motivation
I can't speak for anyone but myself, so I can only speculate that maybe they are blind and have been tricked into something, or that they just hope and keep on hoping.
Actually did you go through an ego removal process where you almoust lost your ego? I don't think so and this way you can be such an fine worker no?
I limit what information I share about myself, and I never said I am a fine worker. In fact, if you check my posts, you'll see that I have said that I am one of the more slower progressors. I said that after a member joked that they thought I had become a Himalayan Master.
And I didn't really do any non-spiritual stuff except for exercises once a day I didn't liked anything that I found on Google to do as a hobby. I tried finding a job but could go because all the negative reasons i got when searching.
You don't need to jewgle it. Just do stuff. There are all sorts of things that you can do as a bit of relaxation or fun, etc. What interests you? You don't have to answer me. Maybe find a local Trumps card group, join a Bridge or Poker club, go to the cinema, hang out with people, if you can afford it go out for a fancy meal sometimes, play computer games, join a local tournament, see if there are any fake-broomstick-flying Quidditch teams around...
And what can we have when doing something except expectations? My mind won't stay silent over nothing
Erm... I did say
Void. Void includes using AUM, if need be adding SaTaNaMa, and in extreme cases, also using ISA. Don't just jump straight for the big guns. Work lowly and slowly, and build up from there.
Do the void on the Void Meditations page for a couple of weeks (starting when the Moon is
not Void of Course). After 2 weeks, add multiples of 9 vibrations of AAA-UUU-MMM; start with 9 or 18, which you can handle, for a couple of days, then add an extra 9 or 18 - as long as it is not too much and as long as you can keep your concentration - for a couple of days. If you are managing that, you can stay at this number a couple more days, or longer, then if you feel you can, add 9 or 18 more vibrations. If you are not certain that you can, then don't add more.
Take your time with this. You should be sitting comfortably, or laying down, because deep breathing can make people dizzy. Relax, be comfortable, and take a deep breath in through your nose, then while you are exhaling through your mouth, vibrate AUM evenly and smoothly. Not like AH-UUH-MUH, but like AAAUUUMMM. If you don't manage to do it evenly, then just drag-out the MMM until you are out of breath. That counts as 1 time. Do that for each time, until you have reached 9, 18, 27, 36, etc.
If you can't keep concentration, then just do it anyway.
Do it anyway. Once you find your concentration lapsing, bring your focus back on to the job at hand - and make sure that you bring your focus back gently and softly. This will happen upto a million times - and that is only a slight exaggeration!
After using AUM for a few weeks, you could add SaTaNaMa. Again, like AUM, vibrate it evenly and smoothly, and if you finish too soon, drag-out the Ma until you are out of breath. Try with 9, 18, etc., as well. You should have a method of keeping count of your vibrations. If you are doing 36 AUM and 9 SaTaNaMa, then after a couple of days you decide to increase one or both of the numbers, you might forget where you are up to. After a few weeks, you could then add ISA after it, but heed the caution as given about ISA already.
If I'm not mistaken, you're the same one who had a long thread and kept on deflecting what others told you, and kept on coming up with reasons and excuses for not getting on with things. I don't mean that as an attack, just an observation. I know motivation and controlling your thoughts can be hard work, but it must -
absolutely must - be conquered, even if it takes months or years.
You seem to be one who needs someone to talk with, to have someone who will listen to you, so you can talk about anything at all. It seems like you have a TNT stick's worth of stuff to get out, when really you should just use those firecracker things which Macaulay Culkin had in Home Alone in the pan, instead; like you don't think that you have got your point across, and you must reiterate things, which then makes you forget about other things...and also distracts you from working and meditating. The Mind is stubborn and rebellious, and doesn't want to change. You have to coax it, bribe it, but probably you can't force it. To take something from the Big Bang Theory, our Minds say to us, "I highly doubt there is any argument you can make, threat you might levy, rhetorical strategy, plea, invocation, supplication, or
vetoomus that you can employ that would convince me to reconsider". You have the answers, and those answers are much more powerful than a green character's expensive plastic Hulk hands. :roll:
Let me ask you one question - you've been given a lot of help, but you seem to be stuck and the help doesn't seem to be taken on-board. What answer do you want anyone to give you?
As I say - start lowly and slowly, and build up from there. You can't rush progress. Things take time - even if it is a lot of time. "If onlys" and "yeah buts" are not going to help. You just have to kick yourself in the arse and do things; no-one else will. Well, huh - Saturn will, but Saturn can fucking hurt. If you might be having troubles now, you don't want to wait until Saturn comes back from his holiday... She (I'm not contradicting myself by calling Saturn he and she; there are different things, parts, aspects to it) can be a harsh mistress, but while she can be a harsh mistress or he can be a strict father who is cold and gives tough love, evidently that is, or might be, needed to stop us from procrastinating, to kick us into action. It can hurt, and it can hurt horribly, if we're not prepared, but it can also bring us to reality. We might come crashing down, but we weren't meant to live with our heads in the clouds to begin with.
You need to be doing some things. It's not always easy, but you're here and you can do things. What is stopping you? Lack of motivation, and abundance of expectation? It seems like it. You should also see if your diet is healthy, as well.
Please also never own any problems, illnesses/diseases, detriment, decadence, etc. The schizophrenia, ill health, etc. are not yours, so do not think that that they are and also do not own them.