HidenShadow
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I had been a spiritual satanist for a while now, although I had been doing my meditations and workings on and off for years due to a severe lack of self-discipline and a very messed up life that I am trying to work on I do always return to meditating and I do always try to fallow satanic teaching about advancement even thru times I don't meditate. One thing I noticed and kept wondering about true my years of working is that most of times I have no problem manifesting my workings when my rituals/spells are aimed at greater matters, things I am not directly involved with but I believe are good for society. Ok, maybe saying I have no problem is going too far as it's not like I always get manifested what I want, nor as soon as I would want it, but as long as I keep pouring energy into what I want to happen slowly signs of change start to show and if I still keep pouring energy into it eventually for the very least it becomes clear that situation is heading in direction I want it to, sometimes a lot more then that and situation turns out exactly as I wanted it despite seemingly unlikely chances before I started my workings, a few times results even surprised me as I never expected to manage to get things that far. Now when it comes to smaller scale and more personal matters it's a completely different story and most of the time any of my spells show barely any manifestation if any at all. For example no matter how many different rituals/spells I tried thru out the years to attract money I am still living in borderline poverty and everything I tried to change that failed. Right now I have a huge problem with a personal enemy that stands in the way of not only my happiness and advancement but also of someone I love very much, and no matter what curses I try to trow at him, no matter how much negative energy I send his way nothing seems to have any real significant effect. For some reason my workings always seem to fail or show very little effect when it comes to things that are close to me and personal, and I was wondering if anyone has any idea why would this be happening?