It started a year ago, last autumn and has been going on since then daily. I started hearing voices. I didn't think much of it then. I even responded to the voices when it began. I thought that it was schizophrenia and started taking pills. Then came overwhelming fear, feeling of being watched. I actually ran away from home and spent several months at a relatives because my house became overwhelmingly bad to be at and felt dirty.
I remember when I was completely frozen in fear for hours when eventually Satan came and told me to ''Go ahead'' (to move) It was like his voice was booming all over the place, like I had headphones on and his voice was everywhere. The negative voices I hear are not like that one time I heard Satan's voice. The negative voices are whispers of varying intensity.
Things the voices do is repeating my thoughts, saying random words in an attempt to get me to think said words. Saying negative things about the gods such as ''Satan is shit.'' like a million times, saying ''jesus'' over and over again. saying: ''Kill yourself.'' ''We are jews.'' I also have visions of misfortune and disturbing things. For example when I'm driving I've seen a vision of the wheel turning to one side and me crashing. My throat being slit. There have been many fear attacks moreso lately, also a feeling that all the time I'm being watched. I've noticed they can't actually do anything physically and I've never been physically hurt just vocally harassed and annoyed. I know this is because of the protection of the gods.
When I close my eyes I see the grey's, I've also seen the star of david through my third eye
I'm consistently meditating, keeping up mu AoP and rtr's daily. Every time I do the RTR the voices seem to go quiet for a while although there are times when I feel like I'm surrounded, can't look at people, eyes keep focusing on things that aren't there, lots of fear. I'm finishing up on a 40 day banishing ritual as well as a freeing the soul working. I've also begged Satan to help and I've gotten it. There are days when there are little to no voices and there are days when it all gets too much. I can't really put to text how horrible this is and had been and I've many times contemplated suicide during the past year, though I still find a way to keep on going. How do I rid myself of the voices completely. It's been a tough year and I've tried everything. If there's any help anyone can give me I would greatly appreciate it.
I remember when I was completely frozen in fear for hours when eventually Satan came and told me to ''Go ahead'' (to move) It was like his voice was booming all over the place, like I had headphones on and his voice was everywhere. The negative voices I hear are not like that one time I heard Satan's voice. The negative voices are whispers of varying intensity.
Things the voices do is repeating my thoughts, saying random words in an attempt to get me to think said words. Saying negative things about the gods such as ''Satan is shit.'' like a million times, saying ''jesus'' over and over again. saying: ''Kill yourself.'' ''We are jews.'' I also have visions of misfortune and disturbing things. For example when I'm driving I've seen a vision of the wheel turning to one side and me crashing. My throat being slit. There have been many fear attacks moreso lately, also a feeling that all the time I'm being watched. I've noticed they can't actually do anything physically and I've never been physically hurt just vocally harassed and annoyed. I know this is because of the protection of the gods.
When I close my eyes I see the grey's, I've also seen the star of david through my third eye
I'm consistently meditating, keeping up mu AoP and rtr's daily. Every time I do the RTR the voices seem to go quiet for a while although there are times when I feel like I'm surrounded, can't look at people, eyes keep focusing on things that aren't there, lots of fear. I'm finishing up on a 40 day banishing ritual as well as a freeing the soul working. I've also begged Satan to help and I've gotten it. There are days when there are little to no voices and there are days when it all gets too much. I can't really put to text how horrible this is and had been and I've many times contemplated suicide during the past year, though I still find a way to keep on going. How do I rid myself of the voices completely. It's been a tough year and I've tried everything. If there's any help anyone can give me I would greatly appreciate it.