satanichonor said:
Aquarius said:
Erasing your memories is just escapism, what you need to do is acknowledge those events and understand and accept them and then move on. If it’s something you would prefered not to do promess to yourself not to do that again.
Sorry the christian said he was scared for his life and that I had too much pride. Which makes me go mad because he threatened to kill me first, and put it in my head so I told him that then that's one of the things he puts in the petition. I feel well some of the time at least aquarius. and this story sounds like I was always crazy the point is 3 years ago I was fine it just seemed the christian ruined it and I was then lacking and slowed down because I had lost my diligence along with other things somewhere it was very very very difficult to get back up.
What happened to and is happening to you is what we call 'hangups'. Hangups are anything that spiritually affects us in a bad way long-term, and it doesn't even have to be an event, it can be a negative relationship, it can be a bully from your past, something that makes you feel horrible or gives you anxiety, dread or some sort of powerful negative emotion when you think about it. These are things that 'stain' our soul in a sense and they are actually horrible links of negative energy on the astral that torture us, it can be logically and astrally explained.
What you need to do is free yourself, not forget. When you completely free yourself of this hangup/trauma, it will have zero affect on you and you will not find yourself thinking about it all the time if at all. Here is what I do to to free myself of these kinds of things, and if it works for me, it will work for you, the thing is though while you're doing this you will have to face it head on. In order to get rid of these things you have to bring your attention to it, and I know it's not easy but if you want to get rid of it, you first have to face your fears and 'look' at it, it's part of the process and I understand the struggle of it if it's something bad enough, I've been there.
First you need to find a nice space to yourself where you won't be bothered, don't let anything distract you like a phone, movie or video; you can have music playing in the background if you want though so long as it doesn't have lyrics/singing and it's not going to ruin your focus. Sometimes music helps to either get you relaxed or to psyche you up. Personally I put on some epic battle music or something that makes me feel powerful for these kinds of things, heh.
Now look 'into' yourself, you can have your eyes open or closed, whichever helps you visualize and focus better, it's different for everyone, personally for me more often than not I do it better with my eyes open but that's just me. Focus on your soul and see it in a bright golden brilliance. Focus on this for a while. Then I want you to look around your soul for the negative energy link of the trauma that is causing you all this strife. It will look like a string of grey or bad energy that's latched itself onto your soul like a leech, don't try to make it, it's already there, just turn your attention to it and focus on it, you will automatically find it and 'see' it in your visualization.
Now your job here is to destroy that link and detach it from yourself because this link is the 'feed' of negativity from that event. You can do this whatever way works as most effective for you. You can cut it at the base, you can rip it off, you can burn it with blue fire and destroy it completely. I personally completely destroy it with blue fire and burn it away, making the link snap away and out of soul, retreating back to whence it came and it's no longer attached to me. Know and believe that as you destroy and detach the link from your soul, that the trauma and negativity it was feeding is no longer there to affect you you and you are no longer connected to it, because that feed is no longer there. You have completely disconnected yourself from it.
Now sometimes these things can actually be fixed in a single session if you're powerful enough, but I want you to know that it's normal for you if you still feel the negative affects of the event for a little while or if it seems to come back to you again either later in the day or after some time, because this working is something you need to repeat consistently at least twice or more every day, because it takes a while to enforce what you want. It's like training a dog, you have to keep enforcing the action until the energy realizes "Oh, he keeps detaching this thing from him... so we're NOT supposed to let this thing attach to him again and we need to stop it from coming back? Alright, let's make sure it doesn't reattach then." And after each session you should vibrate the SOWILO rune into your soul at least 10 times or a multiple of 10 times to clean it further, and then I want you to do the
aura of protection meditation until you feel it is powerful enough and you are sufficiently protected.
As the days go on of you consistently detaching yourself from this hangup, and don't worry about how long it's taking you to completely free yourself from it, the amount of work it takes varies depending on how bad the hangup is and it can go from a few days to weeks, to a month or more, it's like physical therapy, it will take time, but as you keep doing it CONSISTENTLY after a time, you will realize the thoughts about it come less and less until you no longer think about it at all, and the affect it has on you will be less and less until it doesn't bother you and you don't even care about it anymore. You could be completely free of it sooner than you think too, it all depends. This is also a similar method I've used in the past to detach bonds with people that I cared about but did harm to me. I used to care about someone who emotionally hurt me all the time and guilt-tripped me a lot, I used to want to protect them, but then I did this same method to destroy the bonds and now I don't care if they get hurt or killed and I haven't seen their ass in years.
Now I know from my experience these links can be stubborn in the detaching process, it
can take some willpower to get that darn thing off of you, especially if it's a strong connection. This is why I say you can try any safe and healthy methods you need to to try and detach the link, hell you can visualize a dragon breathing blue fire on the link and making the link freak out and retreat off of you, the methods are very flexible. Now once the link is detached don't just leave it hanging there around you, you need to get rid of it. Command it to get away from you or send a line of blue fire down it to destroy it completely in entirety. I've told negative links that I've freed myself of to go and attach itself to somebody else that I hate, and because I have such confidence in my abilities, it does exactly what it is told.
You do have control over these things, you just need to put in the work and BELIEVE in your capabilities. If you need any further information or if you have any questions regarding this, feel free to come and ask me.