darkmonkey666
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This has kind of been bugging me for the last few days anyone can put input on this. Ok so suppose I do have a Demon Lover I dont know that I do this feels like a thoughtform or something my own mind created out of the idea of an idealized person. I know a member on here said I did (Azom (spelling?) On the thread I made on Kundalini) and even before this was mentioned I kept getting this visualization of someone I even felt like someone was lying on top of me one night cuddling me or whatever. I really want to be more open to the astral.
The last few days I have vibrated Shiva 666 times into my third eye and 6th chakra. It seems to help a little yesterday I suddenly saw fire and burning in my mind I was driving at the time. I kept seeing an explosion. I wake up and I see on the News in Pensylvania an oil refinery exploded and the first pic on the CNN version of the article looked exactly like what I saw. Anyways so interesting it must be doing something.
So to go back to the issue. I kind of really want a person I can be with in the physical somehow and I dont want to get punished for this. My lunar return said I may meet someone in around September or October and my Next Solar return has venus on the same degree as my natal venus is in the first house. So yeah ill probably meet someone more like me. I would not want to offend my Demon if this is the case. I got some kind of feminine but a little dirty feeling energy trying to connect I almost heard the voice of someone but couldnt fully understand it. Is this a product of my own mine real or maybe even someone advanced I am supposed to meet that lives in my own area. The reason I ask this is because in all of my visions me and this person are toghether walking in my favorite little area in the woods (kind of my little secret park I dont know that many people know that area exists)
Walking and meditating in Nature are my favorite things to do. I like day dreaming listening to music etc. So what does anyone make of this. I remember I made a post about this same person back when Venus was in Pisces. I am not sure I fully trust this it would feel more like a human who is more powerful yes. I dont get the feeling like this is one of our Gods. Maybe my whole mind created this as a thoughtform because I have always poured so much energy into trying to manifest into my life the perfect partner for me.
I know I cant be fully committed per say to the person I am hanging out with no no offense but they are too focused on the Material world and stuff I have no intrest in and are personality is opposite in some way. In fact in Astrology its Mars Opposite Mars only one degree off and Moon opposite moon. Sun opposite moon and our rulers are in signs that are next door to eachother so while not in conflict we dont have much in common either. (I think Pisces and Aquarius is the only exception to this as they could have a little in common) I dont know how I can get them to move on but I still want to be friends. I feel trapped by my current situation and frustrated with it.
So anyways in a partner I am kind of looking for someone who is opposite of what most guys like kind of different wierd I admit that. But at least I would hope they would be open to my beliefs.
I dont want to be alone in the material realm no matter what though. Can anyone shed some light on any of this. Did I create something in my mind that took on a life of its own maybe even in a past life.
Ps talk about visions has anyone else had this feeling. That there might be some kind of attack somewhere in the USA around the time of fourth of July. I have had that preminition for awhile. I get a bad feeling about it.
The last few days I have vibrated Shiva 666 times into my third eye and 6th chakra. It seems to help a little yesterday I suddenly saw fire and burning in my mind I was driving at the time. I kept seeing an explosion. I wake up and I see on the News in Pensylvania an oil refinery exploded and the first pic on the CNN version of the article looked exactly like what I saw. Anyways so interesting it must be doing something.
So to go back to the issue. I kind of really want a person I can be with in the physical somehow and I dont want to get punished for this. My lunar return said I may meet someone in around September or October and my Next Solar return has venus on the same degree as my natal venus is in the first house. So yeah ill probably meet someone more like me. I would not want to offend my Demon if this is the case. I got some kind of feminine but a little dirty feeling energy trying to connect I almost heard the voice of someone but couldnt fully understand it. Is this a product of my own mine real or maybe even someone advanced I am supposed to meet that lives in my own area. The reason I ask this is because in all of my visions me and this person are toghether walking in my favorite little area in the woods (kind of my little secret park I dont know that many people know that area exists)
Walking and meditating in Nature are my favorite things to do. I like day dreaming listening to music etc. So what does anyone make of this. I remember I made a post about this same person back when Venus was in Pisces. I am not sure I fully trust this it would feel more like a human who is more powerful yes. I dont get the feeling like this is one of our Gods. Maybe my whole mind created this as a thoughtform because I have always poured so much energy into trying to manifest into my life the perfect partner for me.
I know I cant be fully committed per say to the person I am hanging out with no no offense but they are too focused on the Material world and stuff I have no intrest in and are personality is opposite in some way. In fact in Astrology its Mars Opposite Mars only one degree off and Moon opposite moon. Sun opposite moon and our rulers are in signs that are next door to eachother so while not in conflict we dont have much in common either. (I think Pisces and Aquarius is the only exception to this as they could have a little in common) I dont know how I can get them to move on but I still want to be friends. I feel trapped by my current situation and frustrated with it.
So anyways in a partner I am kind of looking for someone who is opposite of what most guys like kind of different wierd I admit that. But at least I would hope they would be open to my beliefs.
I dont want to be alone in the material realm no matter what though. Can anyone shed some light on any of this. Did I create something in my mind that took on a life of its own maybe even in a past life.
Ps talk about visions has anyone else had this feeling. That there might be some kind of attack somewhere in the USA around the time of fourth of July. I have had that preminition for awhile. I get a bad feeling about it.