Aldrick Strickland said:
Sounds like Pisces. Youre not evil. You are a mirror. What do you want to reflect into the world? FOCUS on that which you want to become a conduit of. Focus on Hitler. His power and His strength and His care for his people. Channel these energies.
A relentless spirit that will struggle again and again. When one cannot deny what has given ones entire life purpose. When the dark shadows of life cast their abysmic shadow over the people around you, like a Star you shall burn forth into the night, giving your Gifts of Hope and Illuminance. Yet to shine as the sun, one must first Burn as it.
This is channeling. I feel the will of Hitler flow through me. The words start to emanate out. His spirit shall rise from the grave and the world will know he was right. Then become a vessel of His spirit.
In Pokemon Ditto is quite weak, but he can become the most powerful by what he chooses to become. The double edge sword is he can be the weakest but especially if he remains in his origional state as a Ditto.
Stop being a Ditto, be a Hitler! - Aldrick 2019
Actually, I don't have any planet in Pisces, but my Ascendant is in Cancer and one planet in Scorpio. I'm not really sure yet why do I end up mimicking others so much, I'm still trying to figure it out while waiting for HP. Cobra's natal chart reading to enlighten me more on this all. I noticed my Mars in Scorpio can sometimes make me really dense person and really emotional, but to the point where I often just keep burning on the Astral like a madman, having emotional outbursts and anger issues.Basically, too much water can end up like fire, I agree on that, but I don't want to look at myself as a lunatic anymore, I'm done with that. I mean, yes I have crazy powers and I can become angry easily, but I will find a way to be in peace with myself, and I don't have to look at myself like crazy. I can even pick up powers from others because of my water it seems, but I don't think I should be freaking out anymore...
Yes, I think channeling His energy is great. I met Him on the Astral and after careful observing of His energy and behaviour, I came to conclusion that because of some similarities with Him, it would be nice to learn from Him , but... I will never be someone else anymore. I'm done with that too. Picking up things from others sometimes, well okay, feeling them and merging, okay, but I managed to realize who I am and I will never be so confused or try to be someone else. I can do it all and I can channel energies of the people I admire and love, but I will not be someone else, because I just need to finally learn how to be myself.
Yesterday after I got attacked by one hideous Grey I realized some of my weak spots and my Guardians helped me to finally get rid of my hang up. After so many years of abuse, of being mocked and tossed aside, of trying to fit in and destroying myself in the process, I'm ready to move on. I always was afraid that I will hurt others with my power and my emotions or that I will be lonely, and I never had true friends tbh, not until now. I have no reason to be afraid of myself and my power, I must not look down on myself anymore.
I always tried to be someone else because I always felt like I'm too much of a person, and that I'm " too big" to fit in anywhere, but now I see even if I am too big for this world, I just must make this world a bigger place or I must find some other solution, but I will never hurt myself again or think how crazy or inferior I am. Lot of people here must realize that being passive all the time will lead them nowhere. If we want to become Gods, we must go out from our comfort zone, because this is not for the weak and we must fight in the process.
+ lot of people end up being chained because of others. People holding onto someone's else projection of themselves can end up in the same stage of progress for a really long time and they can even make steps back or can even damage themselves. How many times we tend to hold onto that " I'm crazy, I'm a lunatic" and then we really end up insane and mentally ill. How many times we actually meet someone who can accept us for who we are, but we are too scared to bond because of being tossed aside again and of being joked upon because of our powers or because we are different. How many people here because of their fears and those projections ended up almost completely destroyed...
With the help of my Guardians I managed to make my solar plexus stronger and I have much more fire in my soul and aura now, but it's stable fire, it feels nice. I feel my will now and my personality, it's very strong and it's radiating. I feel energies of others trying to break in, but they can't do it so easily anymore. I can easily see who I am now and I can control those energies of others, I can just banish them from my aura of push them aside. So, my empath problems are fixed by fixing my solar plexus. I was just scared of myself after all. Also, I have some new fancy shield around me tho, it's connected to my solar plexus, I guess I will keep it. It's helping me in controlling this even more.
I felt the need to write this really long, because this is my grave here. Grave of my old self. I'm ready to transform. Phase 4. begins now. Sorry for this essay .....