Hello to all.
I'd like to share a little about myself and how I came to be here and how I would then like guidance to continue my growth in Satanism.
For years I have struggled with the mass, the Christian faith, I as many are trying to believe in this because it's what we're supposed to Right ! Because my life had been full of so much pain, abuse and torment " Christ " saves us !
But for years I just couldn't put my finger on why I struggled so much with this, I just could not believe in the Bible it just didn't sit well but why ?
I have over the years tried to be part of many churches but not one felt right, every time I went I felt plagued by spiritual pain and torment, I was then told this was to be expected by the church leaders that it was
" Devil " at work trying to torment me and lead me away !
For years I have felt plagued to find my spiritual place in this time but I couldn't find it in the Bible or the churches, this just didn't sit with me , I have never read the Bible word for word but what little I do know just all felt wrong seemed bullshit to me and when ever I questioned it , it fell in deaf ears.
I have always been a spiritual person and had a feeling of belonging but just couldn't put my finger on whom to until now !
I found the joy of Satan and for the last 24 hours of reading almost everything on the site I am shouting in my head Yes Yes this is just what I thought , this is it this is what I have been searching for !
I am so very grateful for this for the person , persons whom have taken the time to share all of the writings, so people like me can finally find there place.
Now I need to relearn everything that I've ever known that the masses have been tought, I want to dedicate myself and read all I can and would appreciate any one who is willing to take me under their wing.
What do I need to begin my journey where do I start , there is so much I want to learn .
I'd like to share a little about myself and how I came to be here and how I would then like guidance to continue my growth in Satanism.
For years I have struggled with the mass, the Christian faith, I as many are trying to believe in this because it's what we're supposed to Right ! Because my life had been full of so much pain, abuse and torment " Christ " saves us !
But for years I just couldn't put my finger on why I struggled so much with this, I just could not believe in the Bible it just didn't sit well but why ?
I have over the years tried to be part of many churches but not one felt right, every time I went I felt plagued by spiritual pain and torment, I was then told this was to be expected by the church leaders that it was
" Devil " at work trying to torment me and lead me away !
For years I have felt plagued to find my spiritual place in this time but I couldn't find it in the Bible or the churches, this just didn't sit with me , I have never read the Bible word for word but what little I do know just all felt wrong seemed bullshit to me and when ever I questioned it , it fell in deaf ears.
I have always been a spiritual person and had a feeling of belonging but just couldn't put my finger on whom to until now !
I found the joy of Satan and for the last 24 hours of reading almost everything on the site I am shouting in my head Yes Yes this is just what I thought , this is it this is what I have been searching for !
I am so very grateful for this for the person , persons whom have taken the time to share all of the writings, so people like me can finally find there place.
Now I need to relearn everything that I've ever known that the masses have been tought, I want to dedicate myself and read all I can and would appreciate any one who is willing to take me under their wing.
What do I need to begin my journey where do I start , there is so much I want to learn .