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My Mother died a few months ago, she died a dogs death, lost her hearing and eyesight and was beddridden for 4 months.

My wife was pregnant at the time and was living in another country(we are same race and nationality), so half of the time I was there and the other half of the time I was with my mother.

I was certain my mother was going to make it. The Doctors were telling us it was postcovid. But she did not make it.

I can't understand this. She was only 60, didnt take the Vax, was not religious. She loved mother Lilith(in a form of a Goddes from our Pantheon). She couldnt even see her grandchild be born.

I was thinking hard why she died, and I cant understand it. I am dedicated for years, was active in all the scheduels without a fault, daily Rtrs(there was a period i was doing 4-6 a day) In the last year less until my mother died when i just stoped. The only thing im doing is cleaning and aop. The only thing i can think of is that im jewish.

And if im not jewish why did she have to die? For me to learn something? All my advancment went to shit, i didnt learn anything I cant even feel the Gods anymore.

Was she not worth keeping alive? Does her life have any worth in the eyes of the Gods? Does mine?

I know the Gods are the Truth, and I could never go back to beeing a christian or something else. I just cant understand why did my mother have to die... there was so much for her to do and see. Thies greif is eating me away and i just dont know what to do.

In the grand scheme of things I understand that her life was not worth anything. But for me her life ment allot, she was the only real family i ever had. Why didnt she have the chance to be happy.
 
AskSatanOperator said:
I am sorry for your loss.

The thing with life is that all of us have a fixed amount of time alloted for us, and only extreme effort can change that, and usually not by much. Only rarely we see people changing their fates via spiritual attainment.

What you did concerning spirituality was all well and good, but you should not expect those efforts to prolong someone else's life. Actually, what you did was a baseline for personal success, not a life-prolonging effort for someone else.
 
This is very unfortunate. But you need to understand that's not how it works. The Gods don't just simply prevent someone from dying, even if he's an advanced Satanist.

Take for example the most advanced Satanist of all, HP Maxine. She said she had a very bad Saturn transit in 2004 and it was clear from her chart that she was going to die. Did she just simply say "well I'm not going to die, the Gods will prevent that"? No, of course not. She did heavy meditations and workings to protect herself. The Gods even gave her specific workings that she should do to overcome this. She managed to get through that transit unscathed, but only because her own spiritual work, not because she sat down and did nothing and expected the Gods to do everything for her.

Your complaint would make some sense if you did many healing workings for your mother and/or had her do healing workings of her own to heal herself, but you didn't mention any of that so I'm just assuming you did nothing and simply expected the Gods to have her live. Simply worshiping a form of Lilith isn't reason enough for the Gods to miraculously save her from death without doing anything of her own.

The Gods don't fix everything in our lives, they merely teach us and guide us on how to fix ourselves on our own. That's what Satanism is all about.
 
Henu the Great said:
AskSatanOperator said:
I am sorry for your loss.

The thing with life is that all of us have a fixed amount of time alloted for us, and only extreme effort can change that, and usually not by much. Only rarely we see people changing their fates via spiritual attainment.

What you did concerning spirituality was all well and good, but you should not expect those efforts to prolong someone else's life. Actually, what you did was a baseline for personal success, not a life-prolonging effort for someone else.

So is it not possible to change your fate and increase your life span via power meditation??actually in the main page it does say regular power meditation can even make you immortal by reaching Magnum Opus ,,why is it not then possible to change your fate or to increase your life span via power meditation when the main website says one definitely can ??
 
phi3.14infinity said:
So is it not possible to change your fate and increase your life span via power meditation??actually in the main page it does say regular power meditation can even make you immortal by reaching Magnum Opus ,,why is it not then possible to change your fate or to increase your life span via power meditation when the main website says one definitely can ??
Please spend some time to actually comprehend what you read. Nowhere I said it was impossible.
 
Satanic Avenger 666 said:
This is very unfortunate. But you need to understand that's not how it works. The Gods don't just simply prevent someone from dying, even if he's an advanced Satanist.

By the way dear OP, the JoS site says Satan will make sure the loved ones of a Dedicated Satanist will go to Duat under his care instead of being vampirized by the enemy. That's the only thing it mentions about our loved ones, but really, nobody ever said that the Gods will prevent anyone from dying.

I don't blame you though, because Christianitis is contagious and infects many new Spiritual Satanists.

What is Christianitis? It's a false mentality where someone believes all (s)he has to do is have faith in a being outside him/herself and all will be good.

It infects many people, especially those who come from Christianity.

It has people distrust their own abilities and powers because they falsely believe only other beings can save them.

In Satanism, you save yourself.

I'm sure you did not know that, but it's important to understand that as Satanists when we have problems, even serious life and death problems, we do things, we don't merely have faith in Satan.

The only faith that is required here is faith in yourself and your own abilities.

When you or your loved ones have problems, do meditations, do magick, do healing workings, do anything you can. Yes, even if you are new. Don't just stand there and watch yourself and others die because you falsely believe you're powerless. You're not.

You can heal yourself and you can heal others. That's what Satan wants to teach us and guide us, to develop and trust our own powers.
 
Sorry for your loss. I have also lost loved ones, as our time of death is in our souls and can only be altered by extreme advancement and in certain cases, help from the Gods.

It's as simple as that: everyone dies, until they advance past death. It was not to teach you a lesson, it had nothing to do with your lack of advancement or anything. Your mother died because it was her time to go.

She will be given another life, when the time is right for her to incarnate again.
 
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Lydia" post_id=471740 time=1699554532 user_id=57]

Could he save her if he worked for it?
 
Akay said:
Could he save her if he worked for it?

The Ancient cultures understood death and natural cycles. People need to accept the cycles of life until we evolve past death, which is only by achieving Godhood.

And humanity needs to advance more. When we know a loved one's time is near, then we can prepare better.

It isn't about saving our loved ones from death. It's about doing what we can to ensure they will have a better world to incarnate into.
 

Al Jilwah: Chapter IV

"It is my desire that all my followers unite in a bond of unity, lest those who are without prevail against them." - Satan

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