serpentwalker666
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Hello my satanic family. I am going to make this short as I really don't know how else to describe this.
My entire life I have dealt with inexplicable weakness, pain and fatigue that has affected everything in my life.
I have went through the works in applying all of the knowledge and methods of Satanism in healing myself, along with traditional Chinese medicine, and to be truthful, I still suffer daily to extents to where death is preferable then the intense pain I am in.
I move forward because I have a wife, my two young sons, rest of my family, close friends, you all here and the Gods.
I have collapsed multiple times this year, when trying to just function and go about my life, yesterday I was cutting my lawn and collapsed on the ground and could not breathe, and my chest felt like it was going to explode.
Every time I go to doctors they tell me nothing. I have been through endless specialists, and they give me 0 answers for why I feel like I am dying.
I am a young man in my 20s, yet my endurance and strength is deeply impacted. I fight to hold down jobs, to drive my car and not get so tired I fall asleep, and I feel as though I have failed my family and my loved ones.
Satan and the Gods have intervened a few times in my life so I did not succumb to death, but I do not understand why I am here in this world to exist in this state.
I am weakened to where I cannot contribute like I should be able to, to the Joy of Satan, and I cannot give my family the life they deserve, and I find this all very torturous.
I keep ineffable faith in Father Satan, but I just do not understand.. I've tried everything and I feel I have failed.
I meditate and advance daily regardless of this and try to be present here to offer advice when I can, but I feel like I am very limited because of all of this.
Thank you all for your time, I just am at a point where I feel like my options have ran out.
My entire life I have dealt with inexplicable weakness, pain and fatigue that has affected everything in my life.
I have went through the works in applying all of the knowledge and methods of Satanism in healing myself, along with traditional Chinese medicine, and to be truthful, I still suffer daily to extents to where death is preferable then the intense pain I am in.
I move forward because I have a wife, my two young sons, rest of my family, close friends, you all here and the Gods.
I have collapsed multiple times this year, when trying to just function and go about my life, yesterday I was cutting my lawn and collapsed on the ground and could not breathe, and my chest felt like it was going to explode.
Every time I go to doctors they tell me nothing. I have been through endless specialists, and they give me 0 answers for why I feel like I am dying.
I am a young man in my 20s, yet my endurance and strength is deeply impacted. I fight to hold down jobs, to drive my car and not get so tired I fall asleep, and I feel as though I have failed my family and my loved ones.
Satan and the Gods have intervened a few times in my life so I did not succumb to death, but I do not understand why I am here in this world to exist in this state.
I am weakened to where I cannot contribute like I should be able to, to the Joy of Satan, and I cannot give my family the life they deserve, and I find this all very torturous.
I keep ineffable faith in Father Satan, but I just do not understand.. I've tried everything and I feel I have failed.
I meditate and advance daily regardless of this and try to be present here to offer advice when I can, but I feel like I am very limited because of all of this.
Thank you all for your time, I just am at a point where I feel like my options have ran out.