Fear of my childhood and my past life

[Malorú Martínez]

When I was a little child, I was very afraid of sunflowers. It happened one day that we were going on a trip with my parents and we landed in a field of sunflowers. I had never seen a sunflower so close, and when I got closer they looked very intimidating to me. Imagine, a small child in front of a sunflower almost 1.50 meters high. My father tried to be funny with me and brought one of the sunflowers closer to my face, This terrified me on so many levels that I cried uncontrollably until my parents decided to put me in the car. Until 2 years ago I still had that fear, but I managed to overcome it. It was an irrational fear, now I just have contempt for them, especially if they involve many sunflowers at the same time.

Many will say "oh, it's just a childhood fear, it's nothing serious." But when I did my meditation on my past life,In one part I crossed a door and on the other side it was very windy. When I managed to close it, it had become night in the house where I was. And there was a transparent being that followed me at high speed except for his eyes, which were like bright sunflower seeds, yellow in color like the petals of the aforementioned flower. When this being started to chase me I panicked, and I immediately ran door after door, until the last one that took me back to my current life. Just as I was opening the door, I returned to my current appearance and the lady was left behind (I was a lady in my past life, a dancer in fact).

It made me a little sad to leave the self in my previous life behind along with that creature, but I couldn't take it out into my current life as such.

Does the sunflower have any connection with my past life? Is the sunflower symbolic?

 

[Engineered Trasformation]

As far as I can say, based on my experience, it may have happened something very bad in your childhood or previous life (most likely according to your description), in a place with sunflowers.
So a part of your subconscious mind, unable to understand the whole situation, when you see a sunflower, goes to alarm mode as it thinks you are again in a painful situation.
I had a similar fear, paralyzing, then I have been able to understand why and slowly trained my mind to understand nothing bad was happening even when I was seeing my "sunflowers".

 

[LoyalSS]

i must ask you to clarify, you were a woman in your past life while now your a man? correct me if i am wrong. but if so, you are delusional. the clergy stated lately that past life meditation should be on the advanced section, just because it make people go nuts about the subject.

 

[Malorú Martínez]

i must ask you to clarify, you were a woman in your past life while now your a man? correct me if i am wrong. but if so, you are delusional. the clergy stated lately that past life meditation should be on the advanced section, just because it make people go nuts about the subject.

Don't worry, I know that souls have gender and other qualities that do not change. I am trans, biologically I was born a woman