Question #2120: Incest Dreams

[AskSatanOperator]

Hello, I am a 14 y-o Spiritual Satanist, and I have problems about Incest Dreams. Firstly let me to take you to my 12th age, I had sex with my mom in my sexual dream when I was 12. I was confused due to I did that shit with her in that shit dream. After this dream, I even visualized her while masturbating, I was knowing visualizing her is wrong but I don't know, just I wanted to visualize her while masturbating. After that masturbation, I told myself: "It is wrong, you should stop doing that", and I started thinking why Incest is bad, I asked to people in internet and I wanted to avoid thinking my mom, I was thinking a lot about Incest Intercourses, I was thinking "why are they bad?", and finally I avoided thinking my mom, yes I am 14 y-o and still I can't feel disgusting against Incest Intercourses 100%, but I hope in the future I will understand how disgusting is that. I just affirm to myself like that: "It is disgusting man, she is your mom she grew you up she is not your wife she is your dad's wife stop that shit thoughts" There are a lot of women to visualize while masturbating, so I don't waste my time with these Incest Shits anymore, but let's speak about today's problem:

I still see my mom in my sexual dreams, and I can't be sure about are these dreams real or dream? Look, I sleep with my mom, because of I don't have own bed, I love sleeping with my mom and even I hate sleeping alone too. I see these dreams on I and my mom's bed, so sometimes I can't decide that was dream or real? Even I wake up sometimes at the night and yesterday I woke up but I thought that was a dream, today I asked that to my mom, she said it was real. But yesterday at the same time I saw sexual dreams too, and I thought these were dream. So I thought can these sexual dreams be real? And before I saw dreams like that in my bed, and I thought can these be real? I felt bad due to I can't be sure it is real or dream. And I am thinking: If I have sex with my mom in real life but If I think that was a dream, god/goddesses will hate me. But probably these are only dream.

Briefly my questions are: When I wake up, I think and I say myself: "I am not an idiot to have sex with my mom with my own will, so it must be a dream." but I can't be sure is it a dream or not? What have I to do? I can't decide is it a dream or real. And lastly, How can I avoid seeing these dreams?

 

[Aquarius]

Do you watch incest porn? In that case quit that.

 

[Blitzkreig [JG]]

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What exactly do you mean that you cannot tell if your sexual dreams are real or not? Besides the rest of the context, that alone is kind of disturbing, if your sense of reality is warped.

Anyway, you are 14 and your sexuality is developing now. I don't think it is appropriate for you to be sleeping with your mom if you are starting to feel this way.

As far as incest in general, this is most likely just a meme created by pornography and restricted sexual energy. We are supposed to find partners and express our love in an outward fashion, rather than in the self-limiting fashion of incest. Your mother cannot be a partner to you, but you might try to rationalize this if you have no other sexual outlets.

There are people who like relationships that exist along lines of feelings or expressions relating to parenthood or family, but this is to be created with a partner, not your actual parent.

Lastly, no the Gods do not hate you. It is very dangerous to think something like this, which is not true for the large majority of SS. However, you should make an effort to develop your sexuality, rather than getting inappropriately close to your mother and seeking her as your outlet.

 

[Henu the Great]

" but I can't be sure is it a dream or not? What have I to do? I can't decide is it a dream or real. And lastly, How can I avoid seeing these dreams?

Pinch yourself. If it hurts, you are not dreaming.

And go chase girls of your age. The male hormones are increasing in your body and you have a close relationship with your mother which can explain this to a degree. Instead of fantasizing about your mother, try to fantasize about girls. That can help with this.

 

[Darkntwisteduk]

If u find out the answer let me know too these thoughts are driving me nuts

 

[hailourtruegod]

If u find out the answer let me know too these thoughts are driving me nuts

You mentioned in another thread that you watch porn. Perhaps this has to do with it?

More of a reason for you to stop watching on top of what I shared.

 

[AFODO]

Your affirmation is bad. You should affirm in a meditative state 25 times this, or something very similar:

"I'm now completely free from any incest thoughts and imagination. I'm aware that Incest is not normal, and I don't want it anymore."

Tell your mom that you want to sleep alone, even if that's not true. You will get used to it.

 

[HPS Lydia]

Essentially all problems relating to sexuality can be resolved by cleaning the Sacral chakra. Just keep cleaning it daily. Sun is in Leo now so it's mantra is especially strong. Start any day, make sure the Moon is not VoC when you begin for the first time.