I Request the Deletion of my Account

[Jade9779]

This is something that should have been done a long time ago. As I've mentioned before, I'm living with my parents and they are Xian.

They always hated the idea of my beliefs, and even threatened to kick me out over it. This is the last piece of evidence tying me to Satanism and I need to cut it.

Don't get me wrong, I am still a Satanist and that will never change. I love Father Satan, but I love my parents too. Family is one of our most essential values, after all.

I promised them I wouldn't go behind their back and this is me keeping that promise, if a little late.

I will come back, it may take a few years but i will be back. This isn't goodbye, it's just until next time.

 

[Henu the Great]

All you need to do is to remove all cookies and history data from the browser and not log in again. Actually, if you would not do this and have the account removed that would be like half the solution. But doing that first is all of the solution as there would not be traces on the computer of your activity.

 

[Aquarius]

With all respect, your parents are idiots, and you're promising them not to advance spiritually and gain knowledge and help. I believe you have a victim mentality towards them and let them step on you. That's not a right thing.

 

[Blitzkreig [JG]]

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What I am curious about is that if a forum account is considered going behind their back, then what about your meditations and other rituals?

There are people in my life who I keep this path secret from, but I believe that, despite any confusion they may have about it, they would ultimately want me to do the right thing for my soul, therefore I have no qualms about such secrets.

If you worked in the government and your parents were mad that you wouldn't share secret info, is that considered betraying your family, or is it simply a misunderstanding on their part?

Our families are supposed to be mutually supportive, especially as you are older and perhaps even an adult, yet the "agreement" here seems to be that you give up everything of your beliefs, while they yield nothing. With their enforcement of these soul-weakening ideas, the "essential value" of family starts to lose such value.

Instead of this, you could bind them and even do RTR's on them to weaken their programming, and this would be an actual benefit to your family, rather than delaying your advancement for however long, just because someone else thinks their ideas are better.

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Even if you move out, they will still disagree with your beliefs and try to hold this against you. If that is the case, would you still hamper your own advancement for them? You would face the same dilemma.

For the love and respect you offer them, they were willing to kick you out, so which of you is violating the principle of family more? They could have asked you to simply keep your beliefs private, but instead they threatened to cut off support, purposefully using your dependence against you.

With that precedent set, that is why I would not feel bad about maintaining your practices in secret, as they chose to divide the family, not you. As you can use a freeing working of Ansuz to remove any obstacles in which they impose on your beliefs, I think you have can have both Satanism and your family, not one or the other.

With an advanced soul, you can care for them in ways they can only dream of, yet without this, everyone has nothing. Personally, I would hate to be in a situation where my family was in trouble, but I was unable to muster the spiritual strength for a solution.

 

[lilith_fangirlo9a]

your parents are assholes. I’m sorry op that this shit happened but, xians are xians so what can I say. C u around

 

[ApolloAbove [JG]]

My advancement is kept secret from my parents, and anyone who isn't an SS. I even pretend to be uninterested in the occult depending on who I am with. Some souls are simply too closed off, too dim, to understand anything.

That being said, you should have done any sort of working to safely hide yourself and activities from your parents. You are cutting yourself off from your Satanic career to make your xian parents feel good.

Yes, family is very important, but you need to think like an SS and solve problems like this as an SS. You have the tools to change reality in your hands and you're throwing in the towel?

 

[Shadowcat]

You can clear your browser history and keep your workings and any occult practices a secret. Just pretend you don't subscribe to what you told them and keep things to yourself if they ask make sure there is nothing they can find.

 

[HauptSturm]

What is the big deal about denying an account delete request? I have told far too many people about the JoS in my own real life. If they ever took the time to look into it and read the forums, they could figure out my account. It's unlikely but still possible. I'm not talking about my family or JoS members or people I trust either. And everything is already archived anyway.

 

[Henu the Great]

What is the big deal about denying an account delete request? I have told far too many people about the JoS in my own real life. If they ever took the time to look into it and read the forums, they could figure out my account. It's unlikely but still possible. I'm not talking about my family or JoS members or people I trust either. And everything is already archived anyway.

1. It does not completely achieve what OP had in mind.
2. Perhaps another route of action is better as others have pointed out.
3. Admins have hands full on other tasks.

 

[HauptSturm]

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3. Admins have hands full on other tasks.
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How hard is it to delete an account? It should only take a few minutes.

 

[Jade9779]

My solar return chart has me on edge. I've been paranoid and looking over my shoulder constantly. Misfortune, permanent leaving of residence, financial ruin, the list seemed endless.

This is something that happened a few weeks ago. I keep a book of our virtues and only bring this with me to work, it's the only place I feel somewhat safe. Some shifts, my mom works with me for overtime and we have separate lunch times. When I returned from lunch and she had left, as usual, I looked in my bag expecting to find it.

I can tell you the exact moment my heart dropped when I noticed its absence. I spent most of the workday anxiously thinking of all the terrible events that were sure to follow. Eventually I was able to calm myself down and I prayed and prayed to Satan that, by some miracle, the book was hidden somewhere even though I knew for a fact that it was in my work bag and surely she had taken it.

After my shift, my parents picked me up and at first I was on edge. But through the entire car ride there was no mention of the book. When I returned home, I found it in my school bag safely tucked in the very back and completely untouched.

Most recently, and the main reason for my wanting to delete my account, was something that happened a day ago. This was when my sister used my laptop and the pdfs I print and leave as paper trails were opened. Again, I froze up.

It could be that I'm overreacting and letting my paranoia get the better of me. I'm beginning to think that while I have the best intentions for my family, that I am being stifled, as you say. I don't want to face that truth, but how else will I learn the lesson that is clearly going right over my head?

There have been countless events like the ones above and yet I am still here. And I don't have my parents to thank for that. I'd call it divine intervention. Without having done all the things I have, I would be on the street. But I dedicated my soul, I meditated, I committed myself to this path. And that commitment comes before any other.

It's a long reply, I know, I didn't mean to write a novel. When I wrote this post, I let the fear of my family take over. I shouldn't feel guilty for doing what I know is right. Thank you for the advice. I promise it hasn't fallen on deaf ears.

 

[Blitzkreig [JG]]

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If you have been victimized in a past life, then it is not surprising that you display such behaviors and feelings now. The paranoia comes from the fear of these events possibly repeating, like unresolved trauma. Through trauma, we can get a newfound depth to life, such as on an emotional basis, but this is not done in a voluntary or pleasurable manner.

So one possibility is that, through your own victimization, you learned how important family really is, which is why you want to do a lot for them, yet you also have lingering fears that it can backfire against you. With these events, you could have felt like you were reliving the invasions to privacy and safety that you possibly felt in a past life, thus you feel large amounts of stress from them.

Normally, we would not expect the people who are supposed to be closest to us to violate us, but this is how you feel in this situation. So, you are trying to come up with ways to resolve your anxiety, and by covering up everything that could get you in trouble, you feel safe. However, home should be where we receive comfort and love, regardless of this, not because we hide things and conform.

As a result of this, you may feel that family comes with a cost of pain, and that have to give something up in order to stay. This devalues yourself and makes the assumption that your position in the family is less solid than others. However, this shouldn't be the case, as it would not be normal for a family to take pleasure in the persecution of their own daughter.

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So, you should take some steps to restore the situation with your family, because there is an unhealthy dynamic here. Yes, it is an uncomfortable truth, but nothing that is unheard of, nor cannot be fixed.

Despite what they may think, it would be a tragedy for them to lose you, just as it would be terrible for you to be kicked out. However, you cannot yield on your Satanic path for anyone, because the loss would be too great.

What I would suggest doing is a working with Berkano and Wunjo that permanently creates/improves feelings of love, safety, and happiness between you and your family. Berkano specifically involves proper emotional and familial boundaries and prevents invasions, so this should be used here, but it can also be used in an AOP. As an AOP, you could use a small amount of Berkano to specifically conceal and prevent any persecution of yourself by your family.

Your affirmation should be something that covers your own internal state, as well as the situation with your family, such that this is resolved. While it may be a stretch to assume they would fully accept Satanism (at least without more work), you can certainly achieve a state where your feel perfectly comfortable, safe, and loved, without fear of danger or threat by your own family.

As the sign of Cancer currently falls during a waning period, you could start this on this upcoming Pisces moon, for example, during the hour of the moon. Looking past that, the October Esbat, with its Moon in Taurus, could also be a decent date for a full Moon Square.

 

[HPS Lydia]

I have been SS for 13 years.

I have been Pagan for years before that, from a very young age.

I have done Tarot from a young age, and other things.

NOBODY EVER KNEW OR FOUND OUT.

Don't print things out if you live with others! Don't leave your browser open to any SS site! Don't forget to clear your browser history (or use private browsing) and cookies!

It's that simple. Be secretive, and life is easier.

 

[Antichrist]

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...

If you have been victimized in a past life, then it is not surprising that you display such behaviors and feelings now. The paranoia comes from the fear of these events possibly repeating, like unresolved trauma. Through trauma, we can get a newfound depth to life, such as on an emotional basis, but this is not done in a voluntary or pleasurable manner.

So one possibility is that, through your own victimization, you learned how important family really is, which is why you want to do a lot for them, yet you also have lingering fears that it can backfire against you. With these events, you could have felt like you were reliving the invasions to privacy and safety that you possibly felt in a past life, thus you feel large amounts of stress from them.

Normally, we would not expect the people who are supposed to be closest to us to violate us, but this is how you feel in this situation. So, you are trying to come up with ways to resolve your anxiety, and by covering up everything that could get you in trouble, you feel safe. However, home should be where we receive comfort and love, regardless of this, not because we hide things and conform.

As a result of this, you may feel that family comes with a cost of pain, and that have to give something up in order to stay. This devalues yourself and makes the assumption that your position in the family is less solid than others. However, this shouldn't be the case, as it would not be normal for a family to take pleasure in the persecution of their own daughter.

------------------------

So, you should take some steps to restore the situation with your family, because there is an unhealthy dynamic here. Yes, it is an uncomfortable truth, but nothing that is unheard of, nor cannot be fixed.

Despite what they may think, it would be a tragedy for them to lose you, just as it would be terrible for you to be kicked out. However, you cannot yield on your Satanic path for anyone, because the loss would be too great.

What I would suggest doing is a working with Berkano and Wunjo that permanently creates/improves feelings of love, safety, and happiness between you and your family. Berkano specifically involves proper emotional and familial boundaries and prevents invasions, so this should be used here, but it can also be used in an AOP. As an AOP, you could use a small amount of Berkano to specifically conceal and prevent any persecution of yourself by your family.

Your affirmation should be something that covers your own internal state, as well as the situation with your family, such that this is resolved. While it may be a stretch to assume they would fully accept Satanism (at least without more work), you can certainly achieve a state where your feel perfectly comfortable, safe, and loved, without fear of danger or threat by your own family.

As the sign of Cancer currently falls during a waning period, you could start this on this upcoming Pisces moon, for example, during the hour of the moon. Looking past that, the October Esbat, with its Moon in Taurus, could also be a decent date for a full Moon Square.

I want to start the Moon square on the 30th of October on Monday when the moon will still be in Taurus. But the Moon will already start to decrease in light on Monday... Is that a problem? Does it matter or the only thing that matters is being as close to the full moon as possible?

 

[Yurei]

Lydia" post_id=464094 time=1695362326 user_id=57]
I have been SS for 13 years.

I have been Pagan for years before that, from a very young age.

I have done Tarot from a young age, and other things.

NOBODY EVER KNEW OR FOUND OUT.

Don't print things out if you live with others! Don't leave your browser open to any SS site! Don't forget to clear your browser history (or use private browsing) and cookies!

It's that simple. Be secretive, and life is easier.

I clicked into this thread wondering why it was bumped, and I saw your new title!
Congratulations High Priestess Lydia!