Frtr and rituals are opening up my soul there where it hurts

[Ancient Africa]

It's a good thing but i feel so late.

What are the consequences for this?

The earth and it's people? Or is it just me overthinking

I feel the extreme negative energy of Christianity and all the toxic people and things around me.

I feel i let myself down tremendously and the consequences are more than what my tiny brain can handle.

I'm so sorry I'm so fucking sorry guys for letting you down and I'm sorry for my family that i let down too.

At the end jews WILL PAY and the Christianity will be gone but it's the most negative energy i have ever dealt with i don't know how to get out.
It's like they put me in a spiritual hole that i cannot escape it will take a miracle to get me out.

I must say that it feel and relieving if i do God rituals. I quit my job just to heal and fo rtrs but i don't know if i will make it.