So after the commitment and about 2 weeks of meditations I still am not fully convinced of what I am doing. I believe that some sort of sign would really help me and motivate me to continue. So I wanted to asked if there's a specific way I can ask for a sign that he exists or something else.

Oh I didn't even know about the rtr, it seems like an important thing, I'll definitely take a look at that. Also thanks for the advice.

Thanks I'll try my best and make the commitment ASAP.

Hello everyone, It took quite a lot of time to persuade myself to ask for help... I am a complete beginner in these spiritual things but I really wan't to go this way in my life since if I look back I am disguised how I lived before. I found the website about a year ago and read as many things...