I discovered spiritual satanism a couple months ago and I've been doing good with meditations but it just doesn't seem like I'm getting the full potential or feeling of what is described. To start off, I just turned 19 and I still live at home with my dad who is a jew and a big christian. I...

"The 6th chakra is the bliss chakra." This is intense. I did the YAUM mantra about 30 times, I could feel my forehead pulsating vibrantly with pleasure like a deep intense warmth within my head buzzing and it brought me to tears of joy. I would relate this feeling to the many great feelings I've...