You first have to be honest with yourself. Don't gaslight yourself to believe that everything is ok or that everything is awful. You have to recognise the problem(s) and act accordingly.

Persevering in the purification process of the soul.

Can meditations help me with that

Yes, especially void meditation:

Satanic Void Meditation

Void m3ditation here I kome because I been not connecting to my emotions at all and I realize that as well that's watt I'm missing more right now

It may be hard at first, but void meditation is essential for advancement.