AskSatanOperator
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Basically, I can't always make eye contact properly with people because I feel their emotions too strongly. Not always 'feel', but my body reacts as such.
E.g., if a person is sad/depressed, and I make eye contact with them, my eyes might start to flow tears or burn up, and I have to look away, which creates an impression of either social awkwardness, or they interpret it as me rejecting them or not wanting to interact with them or just being evasive. This occurs even if their face is neutral, somehow I absorb something deeper within them without my knowing why or how. The bad eye contact has made me somewhat disconnected from people.
This is perhaps exacerbated by much of the sufferring and repression people are currently under. It's hard to ignore, but worse, I do not have the adequate social skills to lend a comforting hand. At least not yet. I will just want to solve their problems directly, which is both an impossible task and may lead to me being taken advantage of. But they typically want a shoulder to cry on, which I hate to be.
I can tune out the emotional aspect, but my body always takes on the characteristics of their feelings and impressions, especially if the person is suffering. Like when I watch or read about Hitler and the German people, my body reacts to their suffering and I have to stop watching for a while. It also happens when I witness "lost potential", and frustrated I cannot help them. I develop a kind of enthusiastic fanaticism about them improving their lives, which they couldn't possibly live up to.
It's quite embarassing because it happened a few times watching Disney movies lol. And I am what one would assume is the crying sort.
What can I do to keep this empathetic trait, but make it controlled, so I am not swayed without my wanting to be?
E.g., if a person is sad/depressed, and I make eye contact with them, my eyes might start to flow tears or burn up, and I have to look away, which creates an impression of either social awkwardness, or they interpret it as me rejecting them or not wanting to interact with them or just being evasive. This occurs even if their face is neutral, somehow I absorb something deeper within them without my knowing why or how. The bad eye contact has made me somewhat disconnected from people.
This is perhaps exacerbated by much of the sufferring and repression people are currently under. It's hard to ignore, but worse, I do not have the adequate social skills to lend a comforting hand. At least not yet. I will just want to solve their problems directly, which is both an impossible task and may lead to me being taken advantage of. But they typically want a shoulder to cry on, which I hate to be.
I can tune out the emotional aspect, but my body always takes on the characteristics of their feelings and impressions, especially if the person is suffering. Like when I watch or read about Hitler and the German people, my body reacts to their suffering and I have to stop watching for a while. It also happens when I witness "lost potential", and frustrated I cannot help them. I develop a kind of enthusiastic fanaticism about them improving their lives, which they couldn't possibly live up to.
It's quite embarassing because it happened a few times watching Disney movies lol. And I am what one would assume is the crying sort.
What can I do to keep this empathetic trait, but make it controlled, so I am not swayed without my wanting to be?
