Hey brother, it is extremely hard to meditate while you are feeling down, I know that. Keep going on the journey called life. The Wunjo rune is beautiful and positive, focus on it. Try to close your eyes and imagine purple or gold color, and stay strong. Wish you well

Your head won't explode my friend, but you should learn to calm down. To make them gone forever, you will have to deal with them, that is the only way.